The Colorado Consortium for Prescription Drug Abuse Prevention will hold its annual meeting virtually on October 27th and 28th, 2022. One of the break-out sessions on Thursday (10/27) morning will be hosted by the Benzodiazepine Action Work Group (BAWG), a sub-group of the Consortium. In this session, BAWG Co-Chairs Dr. Alexis Ritvo and D E Foster will define BIND and its symptomatology in addition to the research behind it. They will also present recent successes from the work group, including provider education lunch and learn sessions presented in May 2022 and the ongoing development of the first benzodiazepine-specific peer support training program for coaches. REGISTER ONLINE If you wish to attend this presentation, please register online. This presentation is free and open to all. REGISTRATION: https://ucdenver.zoom.us/meeting/register/tJEuf-2hrDooHNXxgaL8mkQhN0r0KNS2yjrp\ For more information, visit https://corxconsortium.org/2022-annaul-meeting.

I was recently invited to be a guest on the Powers Benzo Coaching Podcast with David Powers, and it was a wonderful experience. We recorded a lively, 2-hour conversation covering a wide variety of topics including benzo dependence and withdrawal, BIND, symptoms and symptom management, the science behind benzos, anxiety, the limbic system, psychology, music, film, and so much more. We even talked about his “rebuttal” video, which is how this all came to be (see below). He just posted the 2-part interview on his YouTube Channel and I hope you will check it out. Interview - Part I Interview - Part II BACKGROUND STORY (The Rebuttal Video) There is a bit of a story about how this interview came to be, and I thought I might share it with you here. A couple of days ago, a listener of my podcast informed me that a benzo coach just posted a “rebuttal” video on YouTube regarding my latest episode of the Benzo Free Podcast. This person advised that I check it out (see link below). So, I did just that. Powers Rebuttal Video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B7LrauKpIt0 Benzo Free Episode in Question: https://easinganxiety.com/blog/our-mailbag-insomnia-alcohol-tinnitus-and-bind-bfp112/ I first read some of the video’s comments where there were a few individuals coming to my defense. I was touched by this and I am very grateful to my listeners for their amazing support. I will admit that I had heard of David and even reached out to him late last year to possibly bring him on as a guest on my podcast. Unfortunately, I hadn’t had the opportunity to follow-up with him due to my health complications and schedule. I also want to mention that David did reach out to me after his podcast was posted to make sure that there were no problems, and I appreciated that. So, I felt the next step was to listen to this episode. I have to admit, I found nothing in the video that was insulting or offensive to me. In fact, I believe that his style, approach, and general philosophy of benzo recovery was not dissimilar to mine. While I may not have agreed with all of his conclusions, his reasoning was solid and I welcomed his viewpoint. I added a comment to the video thread and followed up with an email exchange with David. Then, before you knew it, we were online recording a two-hour interview for his podcast. I have to say that it was one of the most enjoyable conversations that I have participated in and that I truly enjoyed our interchange. If felt like I was talking with an old friend. I want to thank David for inviting me onto his podcast and for the professional manner in which he approached this entire situation. I never once felt slighted and I am grateful to have his voice as part of the benzo community. I hope to have David on my podcast in the next month or two as I originally was trying to set up back in December. Thanks David, D

March 1, 2023 – After two years of work and many delays, I am proud to announce the launch of the new Easing Anxiety Website. There are many advancements and workflow improvements with this new site. I've listed some of the advancements and benefits below. Here are some benefits of the new site: More Frequent, Timely Content — The biggest gain from the new site is that it will simplify my life. By doing this, I can focus more on content. Improved Processing Speed — The new site loads 4-5 times faster than the old site. Not only does this increase its usability, but it also leads to better SEO. Top-Notch Search Functionality — Looking for a topic? Any topic? Use the search box in our menu bar. This new search is a vast improvement on what we had before. Blog-Based Content — The new site has been built almost entirely on posts. All podcast episodes, videos, articles, stories, resources, and even informational pages are now posts. This makes the site easier to organize and more searchable. Better Commenting — Wix provides a simplified, built-in commenting system on all posts. It's easy to use and encourages interactivity amongst our friends. Podcast Categories — Looking for a specific podcast episode? Well, the new website is designed to help you. Not only can you use the search function in the menu bar, but you can also view our podcast episodes based on nine specific categories: Benzo Basics, Interviews, Symptoms, Mailbag, Benzo Life, Road Trips, Tips and Trivia, Live Events, and Grab Bag. New Anxiety Section — While our primary focus has, and will continue to be, based on benzodiazepines, we have also released several videos on general anxiety along the way. This will continue and we have added a new section to the website specifically for anxiety. Membership Infrastructure — One of the key gains with this new site is the ability to launch an online community, including a membership portal. This will be coming later in 2023. This new site is a significant departure from the previous two sites. The other websites had been hosted on WordPress. While WordPress it was a very robust platform, the maintenance and upkeep of those sites took its toll. This new site is built on the Wix platform; and while it does have some limitations, those are far outweighed by its ease of use and built-in functionality. The primary goal for this change is to allow me to focus more on our content, and less on the extra work it takes to get that content out to you. This is only the beginning. Most of the advantages of this new platform have not even been explored yet and will be added to the site in the coming months. The old Easing Anxiety site has already been retired, and I'm in the process of forwarding all links from the old Benzo Free site too. Once this is complete, there will be only one website for me to update, instead of three. And that makes D very happy. :) Check out the new site if you get a chance. Thanks, D :)

Summary A story of eventual success tapering off of Xanax with the support of a general physician, a loving spouse, and dog which kept her walking each day. Details Key Topics: Anxiety, Benzos, Dependence, Withdrawal, Xanax (alprazolam), headaches, tinnitus, head band, neurologist, insurance, success Listen on the Podcast: https://www.easinganxiety.com/post/coping-skills-from-a-to-z-part-1-of-2 Content Warning Stories presented on Easing Anxiety may contain triggering content. If this is a concern for you, please refrain from reading any further. These stories are provided for informational purposes only and should never be considered medical advice. Opinions stated are those of the author only. See our disclaimer at the bottom of this post for more information. Anne’s Story NOTE: Anne’s story is a composite of her correspondence from two emails. First Email I just listened to your last podcast and wanted to say Happy 5th year anniversary! I’m looking forward to achieving that goal as well. I will be four months Xanax-free on August 30, and what a journey this has been. I will be four months Xanax-free on August 30, and what a journey this has been. When I first open my eyes every morning, I wonder how the day will be or what symptom I will experience. But with the support of my loving husband and dedicated sister, I have made it through each day, and count my blessings (as you mentioned to do) each night. I just started listening to your podcast, and I have to say you have helped me get through each day on the right foot. I have a dog and I promised myself that no matter what I felt like each day, I would take him for his morning walk. These daily walks give me an opportunity to get my mind in the right place. And now I listen to your podcast on our walks and it makes the day so much better. I have a dog and I promised myself that no matter what I felt like each day, I would take him for his morning walk. Thank you for all you do for all of us, as there are so many people who just don’t understand. I purposefully wrote this message in a positive tone because we all know what the negatives are. Anne Second Email Thank you so much for responding to my comment! I just listened to your latest podcast, and I have to say that you touched me in a way no one has in a long time. To hear what you said about how you were feeling, in the early am, reminded me of myself and how I wished I could wake up my husband, (at 4 in the morning when I was wide awake), and just cry. And although my sister has MS and her own issues, she would allow me to text her at all hours of the night, to listen and comfort me. I also did a lot of research at 4 am while in bed about withdrawal symptoms… I also did a lot of research at 4 am while in bed about withdrawal symptoms, and why I was feeling the way I did. My symptoms are pretty mild now for the most part, (unless I’m in a wave), but I still have a lot of head issues, as I took alprazolam for 3 years for chronic headaches. So what I’m left with now is head pressure and banding around my head, full ears, and lots of noises. My husband thought it would be a good idea to purchase a white noise system to listen to at night, but I’m not sure how great this is as when I tried it the first night, I fell asleep but woke up with heart palpitations (another of my symptoms)! My biggest issue is dealing with stress or when to stop doing a task. I overdo it sometimes (be it gardening, cleaning, or exercising), so I still have problems trying to say “enough is enough.” I was finally able to retire from property management, which was huge for me as this was our family business. I overdo it sometimes…so I still have problems trying to say “enough is enough.” To give you a background of myself, I’m 57 years old (going to be 58 next month), and took Alprazolam XR .5 three times a day. My neurologist prescribed these to me for chronic headaches, (without telling me what would happen if I wanted to stop), and every time I would ask him about the drug, he would say I would have to take it for the rest of my life. I never doubted him, so I never thought to ask him what he meant by that. Then, last December, my insurance wouldn’t cover more than 1 pill per day, so the only way I could continue with my regular dose would be out of pocket. Then my father passed (I took care of him), and it was downhill for me with nervous issues that I never had before, trembling, etc. I finally decided to go to my regular doctor and he understood what to do, and we came up with a tapering schedule to stop taking this horrible pill. Anyway, sorry to rattle on, but, again, great podcast and thank you for everything. And one more thing…I don’t mind at all when you talk about yourself! Anne Share Your Story We are always looking for new stories to share. Please visit our feedback form if you’d like to share your story with our community. Thank you. Disclaimer All stories shared on Easing Anxiety are done so with the author’s permission. These stories are provided for informational purposes only and should never be considered medical advice. The views and opinions expressed within are those of the author only, and do not necessarily reflect those of Easing Anxiety or its founder. Stories presented on Easing Anxiety may contain triggering content for certain segments of the population. While provided as an informational resource to our community, some stories may not be beneficial to those who are sensitive to their content. Regarding benzodiazepine withdrawal or BIND, most people can withdraw safely, successfully, and without serious complications if they are informed and have a solid support system. Many of the stories shared on Easing Anxiety are extreme and should not be used to create any expectations of one’s individual experience. Please read the Ashton Manual formore information and work with your doctor. Withdrawal, tapering, or any other change in dosage of benzodiazepines, nonbenzodiazepines (Z-drugs), or any other prescription medication should only be done under the direct supervision of a licensed physician. View our complete disclaimer for more info.

Summary A desperate story of mental health difficulties with multiple medications including Xanax, Effexor, and others. Details Key Topics: Anxiety, Benzos, Dependence, Withdrawal, Xanax (alprazolam), Effexor (venlafaxine), Lamactil (lamotrigine), detox, convulsions, brain scan, qEEG, diet, exercise Listen on the Podcast: https://www.easinganxiety.com/post/coping-skills-from-a-to-z-part-2-of-2 Content Warning Stories presented on Easing Anxiety may contain triggering content. If this is a concern for you, please refrain from reading any further. These stories are provided for informational purposes only and should never be considered medical advice. Opinions stated are those of the author only. See our disclaimer at the bottom of this post for more information. Lindsay’s Story I was diagnosed with panic disorder and GAD at 15 years of age, and was put on an anti-depressants, which in turn triggered my genetic predisposition for bipolar; my mom has this too. All through my life I’ve been on over 60 meds, because I’m treatment resistant. Anyways, I was on Effexor for about 18 years and it became a nightmare. I am now 38, so I weaned off of that and was given Xanax 1 mg. I had no idea what that would do to me, and thought I could up the dose whenever my body needed it. My doctor upped it a few times, and I ended up on 6 mg. I never abused the drug and hated taking it. …I went to a one-month residential treatment facility where they gave me more drugs…I was practically convulsing. Shortly after I went into tolerance and was so desperate to get off, I went to a one-month residential treatment facility where they gave me more drugs while decreasing my Xanax, to the point where I was practically convulsing. I was shaking so bad my jaw went back and forth violently, urinary incontinence at times, BP so high I had to go to the ER at one point. Anyway, they pretty much gave up and prescribed me 12 mg of Ativan! I had no idea and wasn’t educated. Then they sent me off on my way. I had all of the symptoms of withdrawal, tolerance, acute symptoms. I became agoraphobic, panic attacks, intense fear that left me unable to even take the garbage out, and still to this day. My BP can be normal and shoot up so high in seconds. High enough where it’s dangerous. Not able to go to family get togethers for years now. I was on them for a little over 4 years, and my cognition is so bad, acid trip perceptions. I have to wear sunglasses everywhere, even indoors which is embarrassing, and that’s been the case for over four years too. I feel dumb and broken. I have to wear sunglasses everywhere, even indoors… It’s been almost 5 months off with a very slow taper, and small things are better, but not enough to make me hopeful. The acid trip perception is the worse, and the fear all day, every day. I also got to the point where I couldn’t fall asleep until 9 am or later, although I can fall asleep around 3:30 now. I feel I will not heal anytime soon, and I’ve never heard of anyone else feeling like they have been on acid for this long. That’s the only thing I think I can relate it too. I haven’t worked in 3 years now and feel like I never will. It’s not for lack of strength either. I’ve felt like I’m in acute for years. I don’t know what other word to use. My story is long and complicated, with a history of mental illness so maybe that’s why I’m not healing. I’m also on Lamictal which effects GABA and glutamate, so I’m scared. I tried weaning off, but that has proven impossible, and I thought getting off of Ativan was the priority. Who knows! I had a qEEG done…I tested possible for PCP and was shocked. Anyway, that is part of my story. It’s interesting because I had a qEEG done when I was on 6 mg and the neuroscientist knew right away what was happening. I have a print out of pictures of my brain and it’s a mess. Lit up like a Christmas tree. It tells you what part of your brain is effected and why. I tested possible for PCP and was shocked. He explained to me that the Lamictal and Ativan were creating that chemical state, some weird interaction. That makes sense because of some of the symptoms. Then I went for psychological/cognitive testing that lasted a few days and it correlated exactly with the qEEG, and completely different doctors, so I knew then what was causing it. Also worth mentioning is that I do P90X every single day. Yoga, kempo, weight training, etc. I was about 100 lbs at one point, and made myself work out, and have now gained most of my muscle back and am at a healthy weight. I eat pretty plain but always chicken, fresh veggies, and fruit. Never any food in boxes. I can’t have carbs, sugar, beef, caffeine and I know that’s common. I’m eternally optimistic, at least that’s what a few people say, but it’s slowly fading the longer this goes on. I’m eternally optimistic…but it’s slowly fading the longer this goes on. Thank you for all that you do. It means so much to me the validation I get from listening to you and others. It has made me cry it means that much. Your effort and support I will be forever grateful for. Please excuse if I repeat things. I have very significant cognitive deficits. Lindsay Share Your Story We are always looking for new stories to share. Please visit our feedback form if you’d like to share your story with our community. Thank you. Disclaimer All stories shared on Easing Anxiety are done so with the author’s permission. These stories are provided for informational purposes only and should never be considered medical advice. The views and opinions expressed within are those of the author only, and do not necessarily reflect those of Easing Anxiety or its founder. Stories presented on Easing Anxiety may contain triggering content for certain segments of the population. While provided as an informational resource to our community, some stories may not be beneficial to those who are sensitive to their content. Regarding benzodiazepine withdrawal or BIND, most people can withdraw safely, successfully, and without serious complications if they are informed and have a solid support system. Many of the stories shared on Easing Anxiety are extreme and should not be used to create any expectations of one’s individual experience. Please read the Ashton Manual formore information and work with your doctor. Withdrawal, tapering, or any other change in dosage of benzodiazepines, nonbenzodiazepines (Z-drugs), or any other prescription medication should only be done under the direct supervision of a licensed physician. View our complete disclaimer for more info.

Summary Robert’s story begins with Klonopin dependence, alcohol addiction, and a suicide attempt, but ends with confidence of recovery and healing. Details Key Topics: Anxiety, Benzos, Dependence, Withdrawal, Klonopin (clonazepam), alcohol, alcoholism, AA, suicide, suicidal ideation, addiction, recovery Listen on the Podcast: https://www.easinganxiety.com/post/conversation-with-filmmaker-holly-hardman-part-2-of-2 Content Warning Stories presented on Easing Anxiety may contain triggering content. If this is a concern for you, please refrain from reading any further. These stories are provided for informational purposes only and should never be considered medical advice. Opinions stated are those of the author only. See our disclaimer at the bottom of this post for more information. Suicide and Addiction Content. This story includes narrative elements about suicide, suicidal ideation, and alcohol addiction and recovery. If these topics are of specific concern to you, please refrain from reading any further. Robert’s Story Hello D. I’ve been listening to your podcast and wanted to reach out. My story is similar in many ways. I am 13 months into a protracted withdrawal, and I’m better — but haven’t recovered yet. It’s been horrible. The reason I’m writing is that my story differs in a couple of ways that may be helpful to share. I’m an alcoholic. When Klonopin was prescribed, I had been completely sober for 17 years. I’m an alcoholic. When Klonopin was prescribed, I had been completely sober for 17 years. The M.D. that prescribed the drug was aware of my substance abuse issue but my anxiety was so severe we did it anyway. Many medical professionals call benzos a drink in a pill, as it affects the same receptor sites in the brain, so my body thought I was drinking three or four shots a day. The doctor’s opinion in the Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous states that any alcohol in the body of an alcoholic initiates a predictable result. It triggers the obsession of the mind, unique in an addict, as well as the allergy of the body. The result was predictable. I relapsed, which brings me to the second part of why my story. It’s a little different. The relapse involved a suicide attempt, where I combined the alcohol with 90 mg of Klonopin. The relapse involved a suicide attempt, where I combined the alcohol with 90 mg of Klonopin. I survived, but the last seven years has been a storm of psych meds, ECT, TMS, IOP, therapy, etc. It may be helpful to share this story in one of your podcasts. I understand there is a reluctance in the benzo community to be labeled an addict, but some of us are. And secondly, suicide is something that I think needs to be discussed more openly. It’s not understood and the ignorance is costing people their lives. Certainly, suicidal ideation has been and continues to be a part of my recovery, and I find that stress triggers the damaged nerves in my brain. The symptoms of withdrawal emerge in such an intense way that it triggers the need to drink. I understand there is a reluctance in the benzo community to be labeled an addict, but some of us are. I’m fighting. I’m not drinking every day at all, but I’m not sober either. The people in AA don’t understand. I don’t fit there at this point and so support from a community is lacking. I’m going to get through this. It’s going to take some more time, but I expect it to continue to be hard on both me and my wife. Perhaps my story will help someone who’s dealing with the same issue. Thanks for the work you’re doing. Robert Share Your Story We are always looking for new stories to share. Please visit our feedback form if you’d like to share your story with our community. Thank you. Disclaimer All stories shared on Easing Anxiety are done so with the author’s permission. These stories are provided for informational purposes only and should never be considered medical advice. The views and opinions expressed within are those of the author only, and do not necessarily reflect those of Easing Anxiety or its founder. Stories presented on Easing Anxiety may contain triggering content for certain segments of the population. While provided as an informational resource to our community, some stories may not be beneficial to those who are sensitive to their content. Regarding benzodiazepine withdrawal or BIND, most people can withdraw safely, successfully, and without serious complications if they are informed and have a solid support system. Many of the stories shared on Easing Anxiety are extreme and should not be used to create any expectations of one’s individual experience. Please read the Ashton Manual formore information and work with your doctor. Withdrawal, tapering, or any other change in dosage of benzodiazepines, nonbenzodiazepines (Z-drugs), or any other prescription medication should only be done under the direct supervision of a licensed physician. View our complete disclaimer for more info.

Summary Roy’s story is that of a dedicated caregiver. A man caring for a women tapering from long-term benzo use, and the lessons he has learned from this experience. Details Key Topics: Anxiety, Benzos, Dependence, Withdrawal, Relationships, Partner, Caregiver, Caregiver Story, Patience, Understanding, Support, Support Team, PTSD, Alcohol, Alcoholism Listen on the Podcast: https://www.easinganxiety.com/post/how-to-taper-from-benzos-part-1-of-2 Content Warning Stories presented on Easing Anxiety may contain triggering content. If this is a concern for you, please refrain from reading any further. These stories are provided for informational purposes only and should never be considered medical advice. Opinions stated are those of the author only. See our disclaimer at the bottom of this post for more information. Roy’s Story I have an amazing woman in my life who has been on a benzo for over 27 years. She has slowly been tapering off of them for about a year now. I think she’s doing amazing and cannot be more proud of her strong will. Let me start by telling you a little about me. I have an amazing woman in my life who has been on a benzo for over 27 years. I’m an Army Veteran who suffers mildly from PTSD. I have suffered from depression since childhood. Let’s say not the best childhood. I have been in and out of treatment for the past 15 years for alcoholism and PTSD. A few months before my girlfriend and I got started dating, my father committed suicide. Having my father die in front of me was something I’ll never forget. Shortly after she and I started dating, I lost my sister to cancer. So, coming into a relationship like this was definitely a challenge for us both. I started the relationship with being irritable at times, which is a HUGE trigger for her or anyone for that matter. The more she and I dated, I started to learn from her. I knew that if I wanted this relationship to work, I needed to change. So, I slowly started to pause, listen, and observe. I have since grown to be more understanding and far less irritable. I am very blessed to have such a strong-willed person in my life. We have been dating for almost three years now, and it was early on when she told me about her [dependence] and her willingness to get off the drug. Naturally, I was supportive. Being new to a relationship like this, it naturally had its ups and downs. She would withdraw, get quiet or even go to the extreme sometimes, and want to break up. Needless to say, we would always work it out and stay together. There were times when I was not sure if I angered her or did something wrong. If I asked what was wrong or anything like that, it would only make it worse. I know that when she is distant or withdrawn, to just let it ride its course. I’ve learned that if I try to cheer her up, or rub her leg or anything like that, she at that moment does not need nor desire to be touched. I know it has nothing to do with me, It’s just a symptom she’s having at the time. I try to do as much as possible so she doesn’t have to. I try to do as much as possible so she doesn’t have to. I want her to be able to have a very relaxed day and have some good quality her time. I try to encourage her as much as possible. I’ll pick her up when she’s down, and even carry her if I have to. My girlfriend and I have the same interest and desires… to travel and climb every mountain in the U.S. and see all the sites we can soak up. We are hiking as much as possible, or doing anything outdoors. If she’s having a bad day, put her on the trail and she slowly pops out of it. Guess the advise I ask is, are there any other things I can do to help her through this transition she’s going though? Any things I maybe should not do? I only want to help her through all of this, as she’s has endured so much in life. She has been a very patient and understanding partner, and I am forever indebted to her. She has taught me patience, tolerance, and understanding. I am better man thanks to her. Roy. Share Your Story We are always looking for new stories to share. Please visit our feedback form if you’d like to share your story with our community. Thank you. Disclaimer All stories shared on Easing Anxiety are done so with the author’s permission. These stories are provided for informational purposes only and should never be considered medical advice. The views and opinions expressed within are those of the author only, and do not necessarily reflect those of Easing Anxiety or its founder. Stories presented on Easing Anxiety may contain triggering content for certain segments of the population. While provided as an informational resource to our community, some stories may not be beneficial to those who are sensitive to their content. Regarding benzodiazepine withdrawal or BIND, most people can withdraw safely, successfully, and without serious complications if they are informed and have a solid support system. Many of the stories shared on Easing Anxiety are extreme and should not be used to create any expectations of one’s individual experience. Please read the Ashton Manual formore information and work with your doctor. Withdrawal, tapering, or any other change in dosage of benzodiazepines, nonbenzodiazepines (Z-drugs), or any other prescription medication should only be done under the direct supervision of a licensed physician. View our complete disclaimer for more info.

Summary A story of a woman on Klonopin for 17 years, struggling to find support for a slow taper. Details Key Topics: Anxiety, Benzos, Dependence, Withdrawal, Klonopin (clonazepam), Ambien (zolpidem), Doctors, Parent, Parental stress, Ashton Manual, Substitution, Tapering, Dosage Listen on the Podcast: https://www.easinganxiety.com/post/how-to-taper-from-benzos-part-2-of-2 Content Warning Stories presented on Easing Anxiety may contain triggering content. If this is a concern for you, please refrain from reading any further. These stories are provided for informational purposes only and should never be considered medical advice. Opinions stated are those of the author only. See our disclaimer at the bottom of this post for more information. Sarah’s Story Hi D, I am so grateful to have someone knowledgeable to talk to about this. THANK YOU. Sorry I wasn’t very clear in my first email. I wrote that one via my cell phone. Anyway, now that I’m at my laptop I can elaborate. First of all, I want you to know that I am aware you are not a doctor and can’t give medical advice. However, having listened to you, I believe you are quite informed (more so than most doctors) and I see that you provide references for everything you can, when it’s available. Having said that, let me elaborate on my story…. I was first prescribed Klonopin about 17 years ago when my son was diagnosed with special needs… I was first prescribed Klonopin about 17 years ago when my son was diagnosed with special needs and I was so anxious I could not sleep, or eat. Anyway, the next five years after that I took it rarely, maybe 4-5 times per year. Then about 12 years ago, a doctor told me it was good as a mood stabilizer (I used to have a lot of mood swings), but I still took it as needed. Maybe 2-3 x per week. At times I took very little, sometimes .25mg, sometimes 1/2 of .25 (yep, I figured out how to break those little half pills). I used to be very sensitive to it and doctors were happy that in all these years…I had never exhibited tolerance. Through the years, I had many jobs and often left them abruptly due to my anxiety. Sometimes, I had taken Klonopin a couple days before I left so I was never quite sure about the role Klonopin played on those stress leaves. This past year, I have been on it quite consistently. I have also been the most consistent in holding a stressful job. I have probably taken it daily the last 12 months, maybe skipping 1-2 days max, here and there. And yes, at days 2-3 I have a hard time sleeping and I feel even more anxious. I have probably not taken it 1-2 days per month this past year, and the PRN dose that I’ve needed did increase this year. Often, I would take .5mg, 2x/day, sometimes .75, one time per day. Anyway, it’s all so confusing. I have a prescription for Ambien PRN as well… Then, if I couldn’t sleep, I would add Ambien to the mix. I have a prescription for Ambien PRN as well, and take that sometimes 2x per month, sometimes 2x per week. I found a doctor that knows about the Ashton Manual. However, because I was engaged when I met him, about 4 months ago, he suggested I wait until after my wedding to taper. Anyway, this brings us to the more recent present. I got married at the end of September. I got married at the end of September. I wanted to start getting ready to taper, but then I was stumped. I can’t find any information on what dose to take, if the dose I was on before varied all the time. I first guessed and started taking .5 mg daily, but that was way too little. I could tell because I got really depressed, anxious, and was afraid to lose my job. I really can’t lose my job. I called the doc. He told me to increase it, so I’m at .625. I am very anxious, hard to sleep, etc., but I’ve been at .625 for about 10 days and it’s tolerable. I don’t yet have any of the intense other symptoms I’ve heard about. Hopefully, I won’t get them, but my symptoms are increasing. I called the doctor, he would tell me to increase my dosage again until I don’t feel symptoms… If I called the doctor, he would tell me to increase my dosage again until I don’t feel symptoms, and believe me, it’s tempting, but I’m hoping I don’t have to increase the dosage at this point. So anyway, to answer your question, yes I do believe I have physical dependence. Maybe it’s not too bad, but I have no idea. This is the first time I take a significant dose consistently. So, I will be meeting with the doctor soon. On the phone he told me that taking Klonopin PRN is a very bad idea. I am not quite sure what to believe. It seems the doctors are guessing too. So, anyway, now I’m taking it regularly. Just FYI, I hate taking it regularly. I used to not take it for social occasions, or to do yoga, or to do my song-writing, and now I feel a little out of it all the time, creativity gone. I guess this is the way to taper and to eventually quit taking it once and for all. But, I just wanted to find out if you had heard otherwise, or had heard of a similar situation. My guess is there are tons of people taking it PRN, and maybe Ashton mentioned a method for them to taper? I believe my doctor wants me to be on a stable dose, switch me to Valium, and then start the taper. I feel like I’m being a guinea pig with no real protocol to follow. The main thing is that I have to keep my job. The main thing is that I have to keep my job. If it comes down to either losing my job, or going back on Klonopin as needed, I will probably go back to the Klonopin. Scary. Anyway, thanks for reading this…. Sarah. Share Your Story We are always looking for new stories to share. Please visit our feedback form if you’d like to share your story with our community. Thank you. Disclaimer All stories shared on Easing Anxiety are done so with the author’s permission. These stories are provided for informational purposes only and should never be considered medical advice. The views and opinions expressed within are those of the author only, and do not necessarily reflect those of Easing Anxiety or its founder. Stories presented on Easing Anxiety may contain triggering content for certain segments of the population. While provided as an informational resource to our community, some stories may not be beneficial to those who are sensitive to their content. Regarding benzodiazepine withdrawal or BIND, most people can withdraw safely, successfully, and without serious complications if they are informed and have a solid support system. Many of the stories shared on Easing Anxiety are extreme and should not be used to create any expectations of one’s individual experience. Please read the Ashton Manual formore information and work with your doctor. Withdrawal, tapering, or any other change in dosage of benzodiazepines, nonbenzodiazepines (Z-drugs), or any other prescription medication should only be done under the direct supervision of a licensed physician. View our complete disclaimer for more info.

Summary Story of a woman struggling to find patience while tapering from 2 mg daily of Ativan. Details Key Topics: Anxiety, Benzos, Dependence, Withdrawal, Ativan (lorazepam), Taper, Anger, Litigation, Symptoms, Patience Listen on the Podcast: https://www.easinganxiety.com/post/conversation-with-dr-christy-huff-part-2-of-2 Content Warning Stories presented on Easing Anxiety may contain triggering content. If this is a concern for you, please refrain from reading any further. These stories are provided for informational purposes only and should never be considered medical advice. Opinions stated are those of the author only. See our disclaimer at the bottom of this post for more information. Heather’s Story Thank you so much for this podcast. It helps me every day. On bad mornings I listen to episodes just to get out of bed. It just helps to hear the voice of someone who understands. I was prescribed 1mg of Ativan a year and a half ago when my mother died. Six months in, my doctor increased it to 2mgs a day. I had no idea it was addictive or how hard it would be to stop taking the drugs. Three months ago, when I tried to stop taking them, I was hit with the most spectacular and bizarre symptoms… Three months ago, when I tried to stop taking them, I was hit with the most spectacular and bizarre symptoms: smell intolerance, light and sound intolerance, vertigo, and flu like symptoms. I was a mess. I went to another doctor and told him I needed help (I feared the first doctor would cut me off if he knew my symptoms). Luckily, the second doctor knew a lot about benzo withdrawal and helped me put together a taper plan. I have been tapering for 3 months and am down to 1mg a day. I am so angry. I just want off this evil medication, and I want to sue the doctor who prescribed it without explaining the side effects. It should be a law — like reading someone their Miranda rights — that doctors explain the withdrawal symptoms of benzos before prescribing them. I am so angry. I just want off this evil medication… For now, I can’t let myself get too angry at the WHY this happened and WHO to blame. Right now I have to focus on positivity and progress. I am in the middle of withdrawal and struggling to work — but have found that working, exercising, and seeing friends in low stress situations is the best thing for me. It helps me feel normal and make progress as long as I don’t overdo it. Right now, I am trying like hell to stay patient. Right now, I am trying like hell to stay patient. I’m wondering how low my dose should be when I jump off completely. I know everyone is different, but is there any data or statistics on what dose people try to jump off? I’ve heard .5 mgs, but wonder if some people go lower. Thanks so much and keep up the great work, Heather Share Your Story We are always looking for new stories to share. Please visit our feedback form if you’d like to share your story with our community. Thank you. Disclaimer All stories shared on Easing Anxiety are done so with the author’s permission. These stories are provided for informational purposes only and should never be considered medical advice. The views and opinions expressed within are those of the author only, and do not necessarily reflect those of Easing Anxiety or its founder. Stories presented on Easing Anxiety may contain triggering content for certain segments of the population. While provided as an informational resource to our community, some stories may not be beneficial to those who are sensitive to their content. Regarding benzodiazepine withdrawal or BIND, most people can withdraw safely, successfully, and without serious complications if they are informed and have a solid support system. Many of the stories shared on Easing Anxiety are extreme and should not be used to create any expectations of one’s individual experience. Please read the Ashton Manual formore information and work with your doctor. Withdrawal, tapering, or any other change in dosage of benzodiazepines, nonbenzodiazepines (Z-drugs), or any other prescription medication should only be done under the direct supervision of a licensed physician. View our complete disclaimer for more info.

Summary A hopeful story from a woman who’d been prescribed several benzos and SSRIs over the years and found help through yoga, meditation, exercise, and support. Details Key Topics: Anxiety, Benzos, Dependence, Withdrawal, Ativan (lorazepam), Xanax (alprazolam), Valium (diazepam), Success, Positive Outlook, Yoga, Meditation, Exercise, Polydrugging, SSRI, Antidepressant Listen on the Podcast: https://www.easinganxiety.com/post/symptoms-sensitivities-and-uplifting-stories-bfp046 Content Warning Stories presented on Easing Anxiety may contain triggering content. If this is a concern for you, please refrain from reading any further. These stories are provided for informational purposes only and should never be considered medical advice. Opinions stated are those of the author only. See our disclaimer at the bottom of this post for more information. Cathy’s Story My story is still unfolding. Never in my life would I have thought one tiny little pill would pack such a profound wallop. But before I even start on my experience, thank you so much for your podcast. It is a great comfort. It’s a shame there is a stigma to this benzo challenge… More people would share if the shaming wasn’t so prevalent. It is a shame there is a stigma to this benzo challenge, as the vast majority of us are NOT addicts; we followed doctor’s orders! We never bought drugs on the street, but relied on a doctor’s advice, and their long-term prescriptions. I was never warned of dependence. Years upon years of Ativan to Xanax to Valium. Years! When I finally reached tolerance, nothing worked anymore. And hell opened up before me, reaching an agoraphobic apex at a Christmas cabin in Flagstaff. All I could do was shake, and suffer tremors and terror while everyone else enjoyed Christmas. The snow fell and so did my hopes for any semblance of normalcy. Each SSRI we tried was a disaster. Each had a paradoxical reaction. The dear doctor thought that an SSRI would help, as I must have an “escalating anxiety disorder.” Each SSRI we tried was a disaster. Each had a paradoxical reaction. Anxiety escalated. I weaned off 5, before the doctor finally believed that an anti-depressant was not for me. I just want your listeners to know that it is my opinion, not advice, that polydrugging is something you really need to think through. It was the wrong treatment for me. I have crossed over to Valium from Xanax (which was brutal). I have cut from 40 mg to 4.5 mg valium. And I am committed to ride this pony all the way to the finish line, to zero. Along the way the last 18 months, were myriad symptoms from hell itself. Palpitations for days, tachycardia, blood pressure spikes, terror, insomnia, dizziness, agoraphobia, derealization, gut issues. And a host of others. There were days I was sure my body would give out. I cried. I prayed. I asked for hugs. But I did not fade away. I cried. I prayed. I asked for hugs. But I did not fade away. Another day passed. And as I seek that magic balance between cut amount and rate of regenerative healing, I also have you, and meditation, and yoga, and exercise, and good nutrition, and hydration in my toolkit. We Benzo Warriors are going to make it. Every day we are healing, sometimes imperceptibly, but our malleable brains will carry us through. Every day we are healing, sometimes imperceptibly, but our malleable brains will carry us through. Sometimes this podcast brings me back from the ledge of despair. I will keep you posted on progress. Please do not stop reaching out, D. Your friend, Cathy Share Your Story We are always looking for new stories to share. Please visit our feedback form if you’d like to share your story with our community. Thank you. Disclaimer All stories shared on Easing Anxiety are done so with the author’s permission. These stories are provided for informational purposes only and should never be considered medical advice. The views and opinions expressed within are those of the author only, and do not necessarily reflect those of Easing Anxiety or its founder. Stories presented on Easing Anxiety may contain triggering content for certain segments of the population. While provided as an informational resource to our community, some stories may not be beneficial to those who are sensitive to their content. Regarding benzodiazepine withdrawal or BIND, most people can withdraw safely, successfully, and without serious complications if they are informed and have a solid support system. Many of the stories shared on Easing Anxiety are extreme and should not be used to create any expectations of one’s individual experience. Please read the Ashton Manual formore information and work with your doctor. Withdrawal, tapering, or any other change in dosage of benzodiazepines, nonbenzodiazepines (Z-drugs), or any other prescription medication should only be done under the direct supervision of a licensed physician. View our complete disclaimer for more info.

Summary A man working through his second taper from benzodiazepines with the support of online groups, his wife, and his dog. Details Key Topics: Anxiety, Benzos, Dependence, Withdrawal, Mogadon (nitrazepam), Valium (diazepam), Multiple Tapers, Exercise, Mindfulness Listen on the Podcast: https://www.easinganxiety.com/post/symptoms-sensitivities-and-uplifting-stories-bfp046 Content Warning Stories presented on Easing Anxiety may contain triggering content. If this is a concern for you, please refrain from reading any further. These stories are provided for informational purposes only and should never be considered medical advice. Opinions stated are those of the author only. See our disclaimer at the bottom of this post for more information. David’s Story I have been in Japan since 1974. I came here as a 24-year-old with a head full of dreams and stayed. I’ve had quite an interesting life style for all these years, running a small company dealing with film/digital lenses. The taper is a beast. I try not to fixate. The Ashton method is the way to go, drop 10% every 10-14 days, if withdrawal is ‘bumpy’ — hold, but never up dose. I take a daily multi vitamin, eat even when I am nauseous, and generally try to carry on as ‘normal’. I don’t make promises for meetings, as this sometimes stresses me out not knowing how I am going to feel, but despite this I usually get through with whatever I have to accomplish, even if my mind is racing. I guess it’s all about acceptance, having faith that life will at some point return to normal. I guess it’s all about acceptance, having faith that life will at some point return to normal. My psychiatrist is not particular familiar with tapers or the Ashton method. I directed him to the Ashton Japanese website, I have no idea if he bothered to look at it, I may print it out for him, which would then kind of force him to read it. Before my appointments, I visit the pharmacist who is an angel, she basically writes on a piece of paper what we decide the dosage should be, and I give it to the doctor. The pharmacist understands that I am doing this slowly, and is prepared to make up any amount in a powder dosage. I try to keep active, even when the demons come out to play. I have a treadmill in my office, and do at least 30 minutes on it in the morning, before breakfast and my first medication of the day. Exercise is definitely the key to calming the mind. I have a border collie, she and I go for long walks on the trails near my house. I have to wear a bell, like my dog does too, as there are sometimes bears about, although in 36 years I have never seen one. I also practice mindfulness. The taper is a lonely task. My wife is kind, but I try not to show when things are bad. There is nothing that anyone can do. I just grin and bear it. Sometimes I succumb to crying fits and self pity, but this doesn’t last for long. The anxiety is up and down, but it’s only anxiety… The anxiety is up and down, but it’s only anxiety, and as I know the cause, which although doesn’t make it better, I know I am not going crazy, and it too will pass. It’s good to have your podcasts. I am only on number 7, but just someone out there knowing what I am going through, is reassuring. I have a look into Benzo Buddies in the UK, where I am from. This was a great help on my first taper, which was 6-7 years ago. The first taper was pretty long, but only from 0.4mgs of Mogadon (nitrazepam), crossing over to Valium, (the dreaded V). After I completed the taper I had very few symptoms, nothing really protracted to speak of. Hopefully the same will apply this time. I consider myself agnostic, however, someone once said, god only gives you as much as you can take in terms of suffering. This may be true. Sorry for the long mail. Thanks for being there. Best wishes, David Share Your Story We are always looking for new stories to share. Please visit our feedback form if you’d like to share your story with our community. Thank you. Disclaimer All stories shared on Easing Anxiety are done so with the author’s permission. These stories are provided for informational purposes only and should never be considered medical advice. The views and opinions expressed within are those of the author only, and do not necessarily reflect those of Easing Anxiety or its founder. Stories presented on Easing Anxiety may contain triggering content for certain segments of the population. While provided as an informational resource to our community, some stories may not be beneficial to those who are sensitive to their content. Regarding benzodiazepine withdrawal or BIND, most people can withdraw safely, successfully, and without serious complications if they are informed and have a solid support system. Many of the stories shared on Easing Anxiety are extreme and should not be used to create any expectations of one’s individual experience. Please read the Ashton Manual formore information and work with your doctor. Withdrawal, tapering, or any other change in dosage of benzodiazepines, nonbenzodiazepines (Z-drugs), or any other prescription medication should only be done under the direct supervision of a licensed physician. View our complete disclaimer for more info.

Summary The story of a man who rapid-tapered from Klonopin and other psych meds to find success on the other side. Details Key Topics: Anxiety, Benzos, Dependence, Withdrawal, Klonopin (clonazepam), propranolol, Cymbalta (duloxotine), Rapid Taper, Symptoms, Doctors Listen on the Podcast: https://www.easinganxiety.com/post/the-pelvic-problem-benzo-symptoms-of-the-pelvis-and-lower-abdomen-bfp049 Content Warning Stories presented on Easing Anxiety may contain triggering content. If this is a concern for you, please refrain from reading any further. These stories are provided for informational purposes only and should never be considered medical advice. Opinions stated are those of the author only. See our disclaimer at the bottom of this post for more information. Graham’s Story In August 2017, my wife Dawn and I decided to move from our house after 25 years living there. We found the house that we wanted in the place that we wanted, 260 miles away. Our two children had already left home. I started getting wonky and dizzy heads at 0300 and during the mornings. I didn’t feel stressed about the move, but what the heck. I was scared I had a tumor and that we would move and then I would die, leaving Dawn on her own in a strange town with no friends. I saw two consultants who both diagnosed migraine. I had a CT scan whilst on holiday in India, after I had my first and worst panic attack. It was clear. I had an MRI scan and it was clear. But the symptoms continued. When we arrived at our new home, I registered at the doctor and when she asked me if I had any health problems, I told her about the migraine diagnosis. She suggested propranolol (pro-PRAN-olol) [a beta blocker] as an inhibitor. I said yes. The biggest mistake I have made in my life. After a week of propranolol, I started to feel drained completely every day at about 1700. Then, things took a turn for the worse. It’s hard to describe, but I started to get a weird feeling in my left leg, and after a few hours my brain was telling me that I couldn’t live feeling this way. Then I started to shake internally, and then I started to plan my suicide. Then I started to shake internally, and then I started to plan my suicide. All of this happened in two days. I got an urgent appointment with the doctor and on the way there I was picturing jumping into the traffic and wondering how painful it might be before I died. I immediately came off the propranolol and was put on diazepam and I made an appointment to see a neurologist the next day. He put me on Duloxetine [an SSNRI for major depressive disorder] and said to taper the diazepam. I saw him a number of times over the next fortnight and I told him that I had started waking up at 0530 each day, with a panic attack. He prescribed clonazepam (Klonopin) at 0.5mg. He told me to take it 30 minutes before bed. It was a miracle drug. I never had another panic attack. He told me that it was a low dose and not to worry. He said that I could come off it when I am ‘better’. I had no idea that 4 weeks was the maximum recommended time on a benzo. In fact, at the time, I didn’t know what a benzo was. Four months later I was still getting dizzy, but this was in a different way, and as it is one of the side effects of duloxetine and clonazepam, I decided it was time to taper off, because I was not feeling suicidal or anxious in the same way, and was sleeping fine. Because I am who I am, I wrote my own taper plan, which started with the duloxetine because I figured that I started it first so I should stop it first. Wrong! My neurologist signed off my plan (of course). The taper lasted two months and the day I took the last duloxetine was the day I started my 30 day clonazepam taper, again signed off by the neurologist. Simply, I went from daily in week 1, to every other day in week 2, to every third day in week 3, to every fourth day in week 4, and then stopped. Best practice suggests that was rather too quick. It may well have been, and I can’t go back to find out but it has had one massive benefit: I knew that I had stopped putting this poison into my system, and that consequently, I was on the road to recovery. The symptoms may have been worse (we’ll never know), but I never had that crisis that so many people have where they drop a small amount and get symptoms and so decide to updose. We both know that the rush of symptoms can come at any time, for a myriad of reasons, and so their increase in symptoms could have been entirely co-incidental. They then make crooked decisions about updosing. So, my first three months of recovery weren’t pleasant. I had many of the listed symptoms, of which the worst was a wonky head, that made me feel unbalanced and ‘outside’ of myself. Add in anxiety, RLS, night-time pulsing and a few more. But then it got a whole lot worse between month 4-7, a whole lot worse. I felt as ill and as low as I have ever been in my 60 years. That’s when I found Benzo Buddies and started to learn. Would I have made it through without BB? Hard to say definitively, but it massively helped me through the next four months. And then at Month 8, out of nowhere, I could see something other than despair. It just happened. …there was something in my head that made the sum of the equation positive, rather than negative. Even when I was symptomatic, which was still every day, there was something in my head that made the sum of the equation positive, rather than negative. I can’t explain any better than that. Then I found your podcast and it re-affirmed so much of what I had gone through. It was, and is, fantastic for my recovery. I’m now at month 14 and I continue to improve. I still have days when my symptoms are worse and I wonder when, or if, this will ever come to an end. But, I have many more good days than before. So, when it comes to people like yourself D, it’s hard to know what to say. You guys are the real unlucky ones and I’m way luckier. But then, in the back of my mind, is the thought that it isn’t over, and who knows what will happen next? I was invited to become a moderator on Benzo Buddies, but I disagreed with their vetting procedure, and so it didn’t happen. I would love to give something back if I can, the opportunity just hasn’t made itself clear so far. After October, I will be back to my normal routine and I am looking forward to catching up with your latest episodes. Your work for all of us is brave and inspirational. You should be so proud. Best wishes, Graham Share Your Story We are always looking for new stories to share. Please visit our feedback form if you’d like to share your story with us and our community. Thank you. Disclaimer All stories shared on Easing Anxiety are done so with the author’s permission. These stories are provided for informational purposes only and should never be considered medical advice. The views and opinions expressed within are those of the author only, and do not necessarily reflect those of Easing Anxiety or its founder. Stories presented on Easing Anxiety may contain triggering content for certain segments of the population. While provided as an informational resource to our community, some stories may not be beneficial to those who are sensitive to their content. Regarding benzodiazepine withdrawal or BIND, most people can withdraw safely, successfully, and without serious complications if they are informed and have a solid support system. Many of the stories shared on Easing Anxiety are extreme and should not be used to create any expectations of one’s individual experience. Please read the Ashton Manual for more information and work with your doctor. Withdrawal, tapering, or any other change in dosage of benzodiazepines, nonbenzodiazepines (Z-drugs), or any other prescription medication should only be done under the direct supervision of a licensed physician. View our complete disclaimer for more info.