FOR IMMEDIATE RELEASE New Podcast Explores Anti-Anxiety Drugs, Sleeping Pills, and the Struggle of Withdrawal The Benzo Free Podcast is here and launches on Thursday, Feb. 21. Hosted by author D E Foster, this weekly podcast explores the background and dangers of benzodiazepines and Z-drugs while providing first-hand insight into the reality of withdrawal. ERIE, COLORADO, February 21, 2019 – Benzos are some of the most popular drugs ever created. They are also some of the most addictive. Known best by their brand names, such as Ambien, Ativan, Klonopin, Valium, and Xanax, these drugs are taken by millions of people every day, and yet few know much about them, let alone what it’s like to withdraw. Our goal is to help change that. Welcome to The Benzo Free Podcast. This new podcast is a weekly discussion about benzodiazepines, nonbenzodiazepines, those who take them, and how to survive dependence and withdrawal. Your host, D E Foster, was prescribed clonazepam (Klonopin) for over 12 years and is now four years benzo-free. In the podcast, D blends first-hand experience, personal stories, interviews, and a variety of facts and studies from his five years of research on the topic. Podcast episodes will be available on the Benzo Free Website and on podcast providers such as Apple Music, Spotify, Google Play, Stitcher, TuneIn, and others. ABOUT THE HOST – D E Foster is a former writing instructor at the University of Colorado and the Colorado Film School and author of the book, “Benzo Free: The World of Anti-Anxiety Drugs and the Reality of Withdrawal.” Podcast Website: https://easinganxiety.com/podcast RSS Feed: www.benzofree.org/feed/podcast Produced by: Denim Mountain Press Now Available on: Apple Music and Stitcher (More coming soon…)

Summary Story of benzo withdrawal from a mother of two whose been on Xanax for 33 years along with Ambien, Buspirone, and Imipramine. She is currently tapering off her medication. Details Key Topics: Anxiety, Benzos, Dependence, Withdrawal, Xanax (alprazolam), Doctors, Support Groups, Faith Listen on the Podcast: https://www.easinganxiety.com/post/the-ashton-manual-who-wrote-it-and-why-you-should-read-it-bfp007 Content Warning Stories presented on Easing Anxiety may contain triggering content for certain segments of the population. If this is a concern for you, please refrain from reading any further. These stories are provided for informational purposes only and should never be considered medical advice. Opinions stated are those of the author only. See our disclaimer at the bottom of this post for more information. Cheryl’s Story I just ran across your podcast and I have listened to the first 3. My story. I’m 57. I have been on Xanax for 33 yrs, basically my entire adult life. I have 2 grown children and 5 grandchildren. A very supportive husband (a wonderful hard working, easy going man of few words). We live in a very rural area in SE Kansas. My first panic attack was when I was 7. I really don’t know how I made it through school. I had to learn how to hide my panic. No one knew about it, not friends or family. After my children were born, I finally couldn’t cope so I went to my doctor and he put me on Xanax. Finally, I could relax, I also suffer from emectophobia (the fear of throwing up). I was taking up to 8 mg a day until about 18 months ago… No one ever told me about these drugs. Cheryl I started working at a mental health clinic where I started talking to the staff and a physiatrist. I have been to the Mayo clinic in Scottsdale, KU medical center, doctors in Tulsa, and so many therapists and counselors that I can’t remember all of them. I was taking up to 8 mg a day until about 18 months ago. I was again transferred to another counselor who said I needed to get off of it. Also Ambien, buspirone, and imipramine. I’m now down to 4.5 mg a day of Xanax and am still on the others. No one ever told me about these drugs. I, like you, finally started to do research while going from 5 down to 4.5 and suddenly I started feeling symptoms of withdrawal. Now, along with yet another therapist, we are continuing the taper but she wants me to wait another couple of weeks before tapering down by .25 mg because of the symptoms. I find Facebook and Benzo buddies very unhelpful and causes more stress for me personally. Benzo Brains on you tube is better for me at this time. More informative. I know I have a long way to go. I have been house-bound since the first of February. I have been relying on my faith to get through this. I am already on disability since 1997 and am really thankful for that, but the panic “disorder” is what I get disability for. (I was lucky to have a very understanding judge, but still had to fight for it) When I get through this with the grace of God, I want to help others. I could go on and on but I’m sure you have heard it all before. My taper is going to be long and slow at first to see how I handle it. I made my first taper by myself and it was too much for me. My doctor told me I could go back up by .25 mg, but I didn’t want to do it, so I didn’t. When I get through this with the grace of God, I want to help others. I appreciate you and what you are doing. I think the handling of this medication is one if the most underestimated and uninformed there is. Keep up your good work! I’ll be listening and reading your book. And God Bless you! Cheryl Share Your Story We are always looking for new stories to share. Please visit our feedback form if you’d like to share your story with our community. Thank you. Disclaimer All stories shared on Easing Anxiety are done so with the author’s permission. These stories are provided for informational purposes only and should never be considered medical advice. The views and opinions expressed within are those of the author only, and do not necessarily reflect those of Easing Anxiety or its founder. Stories presented on Easing Anxiety may contain triggering content for certain segments of the population. While provided as an informational resource to our community, some stories may not be beneficial to those who are sensitive to their content. Regarding benzodiazepine withdrawal or BIND, most people can withdraw safely, successfully, and without serious complications if they are informed and have a solid support system. Many of the stories shared on Easing Anxiety are extreme and should not be used to create any expectations of one’s individual experience. Please read the Ashton Manual formore information and work with your doctor. Withdrawal, tapering, or any other change in dosage of benzodiazepines, nonbenzodiazepines (Z-drugs), or any other prescription medication should only be done under the direct supervision of a licensed physician. View our complete disclaimer for more info.

Do you feel all alone in your dependence on benzos? Do you feel like no one believes you? Not even your doctor? Well, you’re not alone — thousands of others feel exactly as you do. In episode 6 of the podcast, we’re going to shake things up. Today we will talk about the difficulties many of us face in finding qualified, educated medical assistance. We’ll share differing opinions on the subject and provide a few suggestions on how to find the compassionate support you deserve. Video ID: BFP006 Watch the Video The Benzo Free Podcast is also available on... Apple Podcasts / Audible / iHeart / PodBean / Spotify / Stitcher Chapters 00:00 Introduction 09:20 Benzo News 12:02 Benzo Stories 16:45 Feature: The Doctor Dilemma 30:45 Closing Episode Summary Welcome to episode 6 of the Benzo Free Podcast. We’ve received a lot of feedback from you, the listeners, and have made some changes accordingly. We’ve changed up our podcast format a bit, added some new content, removed a few others, and enhanced the functionality to our feedback form while we were at it. First, let’s list the resources used in this episode, and then we’ll dive deeper into the content of episode 6. Introduction The introduction of today’s episode is a bit longer than most. Since we launched the podcast on Thursday, Feb. 21st, we finally have some feedback from our listeners. Most of it was positive, but there was some critical feedback too. And thus, we made some changes. Feedback Form – We’ve added an optional location field, a permission check box, and instructions for submitting audio content. Check out the form at https://easinganxiety.com/feedback. Podcast Format – We also changed up the format of each episode by adding two new sections, Benzo News and Benzo Stories, and eliminating our closing section, Moment of Peace. We also changed the name of the Q&A section and will now call it Mailbag which will include both questions and comments from our listeners. Length – We’ve also decided to try out a slightly longer episode length of 30-45 minutes. Mailbag This is where we share questions and comments from our listeners. When are you going to have some interviews? We are working on scheduling interviews currently. Part of the delay is technological. We still need to set up and configure recording software for Skype so we can record remotely. We hope to have this ready to go in a few weeks. Benzo News Here are some news items that we wanted to share: Patient Surveys – Benzodiazepine Information Coalition (BIC) BIC is currently supporting two completely separate surveys on patients’ experiences with benzos. Please check them out if you wish to participate. Survey w/ USC Annenberg (on BIC Blog) Survey w/ Salem State University (on BIC Blog) Increase in Benzodiazepine Prescriptions – JAMA Network Several articles have been written lately about the increase in benzodiazepine prescriptions in outpatient facilities. One article, on the JAMA (Journal of the American Medical Association) Network’s webpage, was titled. “Patterns in Outpatient Benzodiazepine Prescribing in the United States.” It stated that the rate of visits which included a prescription for a benzodiazepine in outpatient visits increased from 3.8% to 7.4% for the years 2003 through 2015. The largest increase was not from psychiatrists’ offices, but from others including primary care. In addition, benzodiazepines are being prescribed more frequently now for pain, especially chronic pain and back pain. https://jamanetwork.com/journals/jamanetworkopen/fullarticle/2722576 Benzo Stories Even though we are receiving comments from the listeners, we are still light on personal stories and anecdotes. Today I shared a short observation of my experiences with some protracted symptoms during a charity poker game I attended the night before. Even though symptoms still plague me from time-to-time, I try and remind myself that I am so much better now than I was during the acute phase of my withdrawal. Feature Today’s featured topic: Dependence, Disbelief, and the Doctor Dilemma Today’s topic was triggered by a comment from a listener about the difficulties that so many face when trying to find a doctor who can help them with their dependence and withdrawal. Here are a few excerpts from her comment: I work as an admin in a group on Facebook helping others as best I can, within my limited abilities and mostly from experience, reading resources and audio resources as well as observations gleaned over a long period of years. I recognize the need for a disclaimer to protect oneself but I am caught in a dilemma when it comes to saying work with your trusted physician as those are few and far between if for many they even can be found. [Speaking about doctors] Most are sadly ignorant and only learning of the withdrawal but still harbor doubt. Those who are aware and accept the problem aren’t aware of safe tapering methods. I started tapering in 2011 along with some other prescription drugs and its been a minefield of narrowly and luckily avoiding a detox or too fast taper dangers. I’m now 63 and loving life post benzo withdrawal but had I listened to doctors and worked with them I can’t begin to guess where I’d be in life. I question, in fact, whether I’d still be alive. — Kathryn I understand Kathryn’s frustrations and empathize. 90% of all prescriptions for benzos come from primary care physicians, and this was also true in my case. I visited five different primary care providers during my withdrawal, and only one of them was well educated on benzos in my opinion. I completely sympathize with people like Kathryn. It’s hard enough when you have a doctor who will work with you, I can’t imagine what it’s like without one. This is problem which is gaining some attention from medical associations: There is a pattern in patients’ notes where doctors don’t believe that their withdrawal symptoms, such as pain, fits and psychiatric disorders such as panic and obsessiveness, are associated with the drugs… All too often doctors fail to take note of the fact they have been on benzodiazepines for years. — Marion Brown, a psychotherapist working with the British Medial Association, from an article in The Daily Mail by John Naish titled “Betrayed by the Doctors Who Turned Us into DRUG ADDICTS: How a Nation of Patients Became Hooked on Prescription Pills,” published on May 22, 2017. The truth is, I’ve spent a lot of time on some of the discussion boards, and I’ve heard the horror stories. And they can be terrible. Disbelief, denial, rapid detox… the problems seem endless. I wish that all doctors were properly educated on benzos and how to properly withdrawal, but sadly that is not always the case. So, thanks to Kathryn for her input, and I hope I have done it justice. I am limited in what I can say and share on this podcast — legally. As I’ve mentioned, I am not a medical professional, and this podcast is not medical advice and should never be substituted for it. Yes, it is true that I cannot advise anyone to disregard medical advice or delay in seeking it. That being said, I would like to also say it is not just a legality here. I actually believe what I say in my disclaimer. Still, I realize that there are two sides to this issue and Kathryn has done an excellent job of raising some very valid concerns. All I can do is share my experience, some experiences I’ve heard from others, and tell you what I think. That’s it. Yes, I am limited do a degree in what I can say here, but despite my difficulties finding medial support during my taper, I am very glad that I didn’t give up trying. It wasn’t easy. Not by a long shot. But it was worth it. You see, I truly believe that most doctors want to help their patients. That’s how I feel about it. Perhaps I don’t live in the real world, but that is my belief. The truth is, there are some amazing doctors out there who are our biggest champions. Prof. Ashton, Prof. Lader, and Dr. Christy Huff (BIC) are just a few examples. If you can’t find a doctor, there are some resources which can help you. Many of them. The Benzodiazepine Information Coalition (BIC) has an article on their site titled: “How to Find a Doctor: 10 Tips to Quit Benzos.” They also have a list of benzo-wise or benzo-aware doctors throughout the U.S. W-BAD also has a full page of information on support for your taper, which also includes a list of doctors. And other sites have similar support. Links can be found in our resources section at the top of the show notes. Here are my thoughts on benzos and doctors. Take it or leave it, it’s just my opinion. I believe withdrawal from benzos is a complicated, medical procedure and should not be done without the supervision of a licensed physician. Yes, I’m supposed to say that, but I also believe it. Benzo withdrawal can be a medical nightmare for some people, and to have a doctor to work with us, who is sympathetic to our needs, is crucial. Not only did I need someone to prescribe tapered dosages, but even more so, I needed a doctor who knew what I was going through and could help me diagnose all of my symptoms. Especially those 5 EKGs that I’ve had. This is what I would do if I had to do it all over again. I’m not advising anyone on anything, but these are my thoughts: First, I would educate myself on benzos. • I would read the Ashton Manual, probably twice. • I would go online and read articles and board postings. • I would use my common sense to determine what is true. • And I would develop a plan of how I want to taper if that is what I decided to do. Second, I would speak with my current doctor or psychiatrist. • I would see if I can work with him or her. • We already have a working relationship, so better to start here. Third, if that doesn’t work, I would seek out a benzo-wise doctor. • I would check out the benzo-wise doctor lists I just spoke about. • I would ask people on the boards if anyone knows a benzo-wise doctor in my area. Fourth, if that doesn’t work, I would find one I could work with. • Perhaps this person isn’t well educated on benzos, but if he or she is willing to listen, they may just be the doctor for me. I believe that to solve this problem, we need to work with doctors and not against them. That may sound naïve to some, but it’s my opinion. But that, in no way, means that I don’t recognize the nightmare that some of you have experienced trying to find medical support when you so desperately need it. It should be easier, and doctors should be better educated. I hope this topic has been helpful. Thanks for listening. Resources The following resource links are provided as a courtesy to our listeners. They do not constitute an endorsement by Easing Anxiety of the resource or any recommendations or advice provided therein. Resources Mentioned in the News Section of Podcast Benzodiazepine Information Coalition (BIC) Survey w/ USC Annenberg (on BIC Blog) Survey w/ Salem State University (on BIC Blog) JAMA Article: “Patterns in Outpatient Benzodiazepine Prescribing in the United States” Resources Mentioned in the Feature Section of Podcast “90% of all prescriptions for benzos come from primary providers.” – from an article in the Milwaukee Journal Sentinel by Meg Kissinger titled “Thousands Prescribed Too Much Medicine,” published on March 15, 2017. Quote by Marion Brown from an article in The Daily Mail by John Naish titled “Betrayed by the Doctors Who Turned Us into DRUG ADDICTS: How a Nation of Patients Became Hooked on Prescription Pills,” published on May 22, 2017. Benzo Free’s Webpage on The Ashton Manual “Yes, Benzos Are Bad For You,” by Dr. Allen Frances on Pro Talk: A Rahabs.com Community, published on June 10, 2016. “How to Find a Doctor: 10 Tips to Quit Benzos” by JC Curle, on Benzodiazepine Information Coalition (BIC) blog published Dec. 12, 2018 “Find a Doctor” webpage on the Benzodiazepine Information Coalition (BIC) website. “What If My Doctor Stops My Prescription?” webpage on the World Benzodiazepine Awareness Day (W-BAD)website. “Finding Medical Taper Support” webpage on the World Benzodiazepine Awareness Day (W-BAD) website. The Podcast The Benzo Free Podcast provides information, support, and community to those who struggle with the long-term effects of anxiety medications such as benzodiazepines (Xanax, Ativan, Klonopin, Valium) and Z-drugs (Ambien, Lunesta, Sonata). WEBSITE: https://www.easinganxiety.com MAILING LIST: https://www.easinganxiety.com/subscribe YOUTUBE: https://www.youtube.com/@easinganx DISCLAIMER All content provided by Easing Anxiety is for general informational purposes only and should never be considered medical advice. Any health-related information provided is not a substitute for medical advice and should not be used to diagnose or treat health problems, or to prescribe any medical devices or other remedies. Never disregard medical advice or delay in seeking it. Please visit our website for our complete disclaimer at https://www.easinganxiety.com/disclaimer. CREDITS Music provided / licensed by Storyblocks Audio — https://www.storyblocks.com Benzo Free Theme — Title: “Walk in the Park” — Artist: Neil Cross PRODUCTION Easing Anxiety is produced by… Denim Mountain Press https://www.denimmountainpress.com ©2022 Denim Mountain Press – All Rights Reserved

Have you read the Ashton Manual? Do you know what it is? Do you know who Prof. Ashton is? Well, if you or anyone you know is dependent on benzos, you should. In today’s feature, we focus on Professor C. Heather Ashton, her work with benzo withdrawal patients, and her life-saving manual. And we say a heartfelt thank you, for all she has done. We also touch on some news, discuss GABA receptors and the doctor dilemma, and share the first benzo story from one of our listeners. Video ID: BFP007 Watch the Video The Benzo Free Podcast is also available on... Apple Podcasts / Audible / iHeart / PodBean / Spotify / Stitcher Chapters 03:02 Mailbag 11:42 Benzo News 14:18 Benzo Story 19:08 Feature: The Ashton Manual 30:17 Closing Resources The following resource links are provided as a courtesy to our listeners. They do not constitute an endorsement by Easing Anxiety of the resource or any recommendations or advice provided therein. MAILBAG: GABA Receptors The Ashton Manual New South Wales Government: Health Fact Sheet on Benzodiazepines AddictionBlog.org – “Five (5) Facts About Benzodiazepine Withdrawal (You Need to Know)” BENZO NEWS Benzodiazepine Information Coalition (BIC) “Want to Prevent Suicides? Stop Ignoring Benzo Patients” on BIC Blog Benzo Free: Resources Page (including Suicide Hotlines) FEATURE – The Ashton Manual The Ashton Manual World Benzodiazepine Awareness Day (W-BAD) W-BAD: “Who Is Dr. Ashton?” W-BAD: “Reminder to Please Support Nomination for Prof. Ashton: UK Queen’s Honour List 2019” (Which includes letter by Wayne Douglas about Prof. Ashton) Benzo.org.uk: Professor C Heather Ashton Episode Summary This is the last of our launch episodes, next week we start with our regular weekly schedule releasing a new episode each Wednesday. Today’s feature is focused on Prof. Ashton and the Ashton manual and we also have a lot to share in our Mailbag, Benzo News, and Benzo Stories sections. Introduction Today’s introduction, in contrast to our last episode, was quite short. So, let’s move on. Mailbag This is where we share questions and comments from our listeners. Can you tell me when the podcast episodes will be released each week? This question was submitted by Elizabeth in the comments for episode 5. I released the first 5 episodes on Wednesday, Feb. 21st The next week, this week, I am doubling up on episodes. I released episode 6 on Tuesday, Feb. 26th. And I am releasing this one, episode 7, on Thursday, Feb. 28th. Starting next week, we will be on our regular weekly schedule going forward. A new episode will be released every Wednesday. Depending on the speed at which the providers, such as Apple Music, Stitcher, Google Play, Spotify, and TuneIn approve new episodes, they will be available online Wednesday or Thursday. What are GABA receptors? I keep reading about them online, but I still don’t really understand what they are, or how they work. Rather than repost the entire description here, I will share a link to the Basics of Benzos page on the Benzo Free Website. Scroll down to “How Do Benzos Work?” for an explanation. COMMENT: Regarding our discussion on doctors in our last episode, “Dependence, Disbelief, and the Doctor Dilemma.” Here are a few excerpts from the comment that I shared on the podcast. You are very fortunate in your experiences with doctors. When I was going through acute benzo withdrawal, my doctors treated me like a criminal. They accused me of having taken more than was prescribed and then they accused me of having conversion disorder. They treated me like I was paranoid. I was told that benzo withdrawal symptoms only last a few weeks. I went through absolute hell for 14 months and have debilitating symptoms to this day although I have had improvements. The only good thing to come of this is that I vowed I would make a difference for other people and change the way the medical system treats patients like me. Now I’m halfway through an MSW program and intend to go back to the HMO, the next time with LCSW credentials and copies of work on benzo damage that I will eventually publish, and lay it out for them again, this time from the standpoint of a mental health professional who has been iatrogenically harmed. Meschelle from Alexandria, Virginia Benzo News “Want to Prevent Suicides? Stop Ignoring Benzo Patients” I shared highlights from a blog post on the website of the Benzodiazepine Information Coalition (BIC). Here are a few of my comments. Please visit the BIC’s website to view the article. BIC Website Direct Link to the Blog Post Benzo Story We finally have our first story to share in our Benzo Stories section. I just ran across your podcast and I have listened to the first 3. My story. I’m 57. I have been on Xanax for 33 yrs, basically my entire adult life. I have 2 grown children and 5 grandchildren [and] a very supportive husband (a wonderful hard working, easy going man of few words). We live in a very rural area in SE Kansas. My first panic attack was when I was 7. I really don’t know how I made it through school. I had to learn how to hide my panic. No one knew about it, not friends or family. After my children were born, I finally couldn’t cope so I went to my doctor and he put me on Xanax. Finally, I could relax. I started working at a mental health clinic where I started talking to the staff and physiatrist. I have been to the Mayo clinic in Scottsdale, KU medical center, doctors in Tulsa and so many therapists and counselors that I can’t remember all of them. I was taking up to 8 mg a day until about 18 months ago. I was also on Ambien, buspiron, and imipramine. I was again transferred to another counselor who said I needed to get off of it. I’m now down to 4.5 mg a day of Xanax and am still on the others. No one ever told me about these drugs. I like you finally started to do research while going from 5 down to 4.5 and suddenly I started feeling symptoms of withdrawal. Now along with yet another therapist we are continuing the taper but she wants me to wait another couple of weeks before tapering down by .25 mg because of the symptoms. I know I have a long way to go. I have been house bound since the first of Feb. I have been relying on my faith to get through this. I am already on disability since 1997 and am really thankful for that, but the panic “disorder” is what I get disability for. I could go on and on but I’m sure you have heard it all before. My taper is going to be long and slow at first to see how I handle it. I made my first taper by myself and it was too much for me. My doctor told me I could go back up by .25 mg but I didn’t want to do it so I didn’t. When I get through this with the grace of God I, want to help others. I appreciate you and what you are doing. I think the handling of this medication is one of the most underestimated and uninformed there is. Keep up your good work! I’ll be listening and reading your book. And God Bless you! Cheryl Cheryl, from SE Kansas, USA Feature Today’s featured topic: The Ashton Manual – Who Wrote It and Why You Should Read It This feature topic is a sort of homage to Prof. Ashton and the Ashton Manual. Benzo Free, along with its host, support The Ashton Manual and recognize the number of lives it has saved over the past many years. Please be advised that Professor Ashton is now fully retired and no longer based at Newcastle Univeristy. She is therefore unable to deal with personal email enquiries with regard to benzodiazepine-related problems. Please also note that Professor Ashton does not support or endorse any internet support group. benzo.org.uk CAREER ACCOMPLISHMENTS Here are some highlights of Prof. Ashton’s career: Graduate of the University of Oxford where she obtained a First Class Honours Degree (BA) in Physiology in 1951. Postgraduate Doctor of Medicine degree (DM) in 1956 Member of the Royal College of Physicians, London in 1958 Fellow of the Royal College of Physicians, London in 1975 A National Health Service Consultant in Clinical Psychopharmacology in 1975 A National Health Service Consultant in Psychiatry in 1994. A researcher, lecturer, senior lecturer, reader, and professor at the University of Newcastle upon Tyne. A patron of the Bristol & District Tranquilliser Project Involved in the UK organization, Victims of Tranquilizers (VOT) Has submitted evidence about benzodiazepines to the House of Commons Health Select Committee. Has a Facebook page dedicated to her titled: “Tribute to Professor Heather Ashton” CLINICAL WORK For twelve years I ran a benzodiazepine withdrawal clinic for people wanting to come off their tranquillisers and sleeping pills. Much of what I know about this subject was taught to me by those brave and long-suffering men and women…It is interesting that the patients themselves, and not the medical profession, were the first to realise that long-term use of benzodiazepines can cause problems. — Prof. Ashton I shared some highlights from a letter written by Wayne Douglas, co-founder of World Benzodiazepine Awareness Day (W-BAD), regarding the nomination of Prof. Ashton for Queen’s Honours. You can read the letter via the link below. W-BAD Web Page with Letter THE ASHTON MANUAL The manual itself consists of four chapters: CHAPTER I: The benzodiazepines: what they do in the body CHAPTER II: How to withdraw from benzodiazepines after long-term use CHAPTER III: Slow withdrawal schedules CHAPTER IV: Benzodiazepine withdrawal symptoms, acute & prtracted Here are a few words from the 2011 supplement to The Ashton Manual: It is important to remember that by far the greatest majority of long-term benzodiazepine users do recover from withdrawal – given time. Even protracted symptoms tend to decrease gradually, sometimes over years. The individual needs to know that the actual drug withdrawal is only the first step towards recovery. It may be followed by a prolonged period of convalescence during which the damage caused to the person’s body – and often to his whole life – needs to be repaired as far as possible. But the brain, like the rest of the body, has an enormous capacity for adapting and self-healing. That is how life survives and how ex-benzodiazepine (quote) ‘addicts’ can be optimistic about their future. — Prof. Ashton Until you have been through the ordeal of benzo withdrawal, and found yourself so desparate for information and guidance, you’ll never know the type of life raft that this manual has been too us. Prof. Ashton, thank you. The Podcast The Benzo Free Podcast provides information, support, and community to those who struggle with the long-term effects of anxiety medications such as benzodiazepines (Xanax, Ativan, Klonopin, Valium) and Z-drugs (Ambien, Lunesta, Sonata). WEBSITE: https://www.easinganxiety.com MAILING LIST: https://www.easinganxiety.com/subscribe YOUTUBE: https://www.youtube.com/@easinganx DISCLAIMER All content provided by Easing Anxiety is for general informational purposes only and should never be considered medical advice. Any health-related information provided is not a substitute for medical advice and should not be used to diagnose or treat health problems, or to prescribe any medical devices or other remedies. Never disregard medical advice or delay in seeking it. Please visit our website for our complete disclaimer at https://www.easinganxiety.com/disclaimer. CREDITS Music provided / licensed by Storyblocks Audio — https://www.storyblocks.com Benzo Free Theme — Title: “Walk in the Park” — Artist: Neil Cross PRODUCTION Easing Anxiety is produced by… Denim Mountain Press https://www.denimmountainpress.com ©2022 Denim Mountain Press – All Rights Reserved

Summary Story of benzo withdrawal from a mother of two whose been on Xanax for 33 years along with Ambien, Buspirone, and Imipramine. She is currently tapering off her medication. Details Key Topics: Anxiety, Benzos, Dependence, Withdrawal, Klonopin (clonazepam), Polydrug, Doctors, Toxins, Leaky Gut, Natural Diet, Support Groups, Success Listen on the Podcast: https://www.easinganxiety.com/post/an-introduction-to-benzo-withdrawal-symptoms-bfp008 Content Warning Stories presented on Easing Anxiety may contain triggering content for certain segments of the population. If this is a concern for you, please refrain from reading any further. These stories are provided for informational purposes only and should never be considered medical advice. Opinions stated are those of the author only. See our disclaimer at the bottom of this post for more information. Lynne’s Story Hi! Today was the first time I came across your Podcast and I want to tell you how impressed I am. I would like to tell you may story of recovery and I encourage you to use it. I was prescribed a benzo (Klonopin) for anxiety and depression in 2009 by a nurse practitioner in a small community clinic. The nurse gave me no information or warnings. And since I was not familiar with prescription drugs at all, I took it based on the fact that it was prescribed for me by an ‘expert’. I rarely even had pain relievers in my medicine cabinet let alone a prescribed drug. …it was alarming, but I never thought the drug could be causing my problems. So, my journey began and I was just a clueless rider in the back of the bus. So many things started to go ‘wrong’ with my physical condition it was alarming but I never thought the drug could be causing my problems. I was told by one doctor I had a thyroid condition and he gave me two prescriptions to “help”…sigh. So now I’m taking three different drugs and I develop more problems: insomnia, pain everywhere, bad body smell, sensitivity to smells light and sound, and a lot of crying for no reason at all. My life fell apart and I lost my job and couldn’t return to work. No one knew what was wrong with me and so I started seeing more specialists who all put me on different medications – 13 in total before I almost lost my life to them. As I started joining support groups on Facebook I started learning about all the things that were wrong with me and what could be causing them and I started to make changes in my life as I learned. One of the first things I learned was about what is called ‘leaky gut’ and how the toxins that get in our body by way of our leaking guts puts our health at risk in multiply ways but especially through our immune system. One of the first things I learned was about what is called ‘leaky gut’… After changing literally everything about my life, and I mean by getting rid of all toxins from life whether it was in my food my water, perfume, soaps, hygiene products, etc., I started to feel better. Next was tackling the prescription drugs and I was able to get off all but the benzo (Klonopin). I tried to get off the benzo at one point but I didn’t know how and so I failed and when I went back to it I even had the doctor increase the dose because I truly thought I needed it – so then I was taking 1.5mg a day. At one point I tried to overdose on them because I was so miserable, I didn’t see how I could make it any farther through life. After a year and a half on benzo support pages, I decided I could stop by tapering over an extended period of time. The doctor that was prescribing them to me listened to me because I brought a two-page testimony of a doctor who had been on a benzo and went through the horrors and talked about the importance of tapering. My doctor took the time to read it quickly while in the room with me because it was so short and concise. I truly believe if I hadn’t brought her testimony he wouldn’t have been so willing to work with me on a taper program. After a short discussion, we agreed to a six month taper (he wouldn’t go any farther) and I was happy that he even agreed to a six month time period. I also knew that I had enough extra pills to taper myself if 6 months wasn’t long enough. It took me seven months in total and I was successful. It took me seven months in total and I was successful. The first two weeks of each taper were the hardest and the second two weeks not so bad as my body adjusted to the new dose. I broke my pills into very precise pieces because I couldn’t afford to have a pharmacy titrate for me. I took my dose no matter how small at the same time everyday, and at the end I was literally taking three tiny crumbs each day that you could barely see. It worked, and I’ve been off of them now for nine months and life is good. I have a few symptoms occasionally — like twitching muscles — but overall I feel normal now. I also take a great deal of supplements and keep my body detoxed as much as possible. I believe this has been a huge help in recovery. I want to add something that I think is really important to recovery and that’s while tapering do not do anything strenuous, keep a simple and calm routine each day and it will be very beneficial. People who cannot find a peaceful setting will have a harder time withdrawing. Thanks for allowing me to share my story and if you want to interview me I would be honored. Have a great day! Lynne Share Your Story We are always looking for new stories to share. Please visit our feedback form if you’d like to share your story with our community. Thank you. Disclaimer All stories shared on Easing Anxiety are done so with the author’s permission. These stories are provided for informational purposes only and should never be considered medical advice. The views and opinions expressed within are those of the author only, and do not necessarily reflect those of Easing Anxiety or its founder. Stories presented on Easing Anxiety may contain triggering content for certain segments of the population. While provided as an informational resource to our community, some stories may not be beneficial to those who are sensitive to their content. Regarding benzodiazepine withdrawal or BIND, most people can withdraw safely, successfully, and without serious complications if they are informed and have a solid support system. Many of the stories shared on Easing Anxiety are extreme and should not be used to create any expectations of one’s individual experience. Please read the Ashton Manual formore information and work with your doctor. Withdrawal, tapering, or any other change in dosage of benzodiazepines, nonbenzodiazepines (Z-drugs), or any other prescription medication should only be done under the direct supervision of a licensed physician. View our complete disclaimer for more info.

What are the common symptoms of benzo withdrawal? How many are there? What do they all have in common? And, will any of them be permanent? In today’s episode, we take a brief tour through the persistent parade of possible symptoms which accompany benzo withdrawal syndrome. We also introduce a new documentary film in the works, discuss media coverage of BWS, and share a story of successful withdrawal. Video ID: BFP008 Watch the Video The Benzo Free Podcast is also available on... Apple Podcasts / Audible / iHeart / PodBean / Spotify / Stitcher Chapters 00:00 Introduction 09:03 Mailbag 13:16 Benzo News 17:33 Benzo Story 24:50 Feature: An Introduction to Benzo Withdrawal Symptoms 35:26 Closing Resources The following resource links are provided as a courtesy to our listeners. They do not constitute an endorsement by Easing Anxiety of the resource or any recommendations or advice provided therein. MAILBAG APA’s Definition of PTSD BENZO NEWS Benzo Free Resources Page (UPDATED) “As Prescribed — A Film by Holly Hardman “Flumazenil Risks Likely Outweigh Its Benefits” by Leon Gussow, MD in Emergency Medicine News FEATURE — An Introduction to Benzo Withdrawal Symptoms The Ashton Manual “Withdrawal from Benzodiazepines” by Shirley Trickett, in Journal of the Royal College of General Practitioners 33(254)(September 1983) Introduction I opened up today’s episode wondering where people were when they were listening to the podcast. Are they doing well, or poorly. And I reminded everyone that we’re here, those of us who have been through it, and you’re not alone. I also talked a bit about our cold snap in the northern U.S. and shared some statistics on the podcast that I recently observed, including our global reach. While our largest number of listeners are currently in the US, Canada, and the UK, we also have listeners in Switzerland, France, Finland, Norway, Netherlands, Ireland, Bulgaria, Australia, New Zealand, Brazil, Portugal, and even Qatar. In addition, we had over 600 downloads in the first two weeks of the podcast, which was nice to see. Mailbag This is where we share questions and comments from our listeners. I wondered what your thoughts are about different healing patterns? Also, what about PTSD? This question was submitted by Catherine. She was curious if waves and windows are the norm, or if some people have consistent symptoms. I reminded her that everyone is different and some don’t experience waves and windows, especially in the lates stages of protracted withdrawal. I also mentioned that PTSD might be common in withdrawal, but in my opinion, it’s more of a question of semantics. Since I am not a medical professional, I didn’t have a clear and concise answer for her. Benzo News Here are the news articles shared in today’s podcast: Updates to Website: Benzo Free Resources I’ve been making some enhancements to the website lately. Several of the changes include making it more visually appealing on mobile devices. In addition, I just spent a couple of days creating a new resources section on the website. It now has its own menu category, it’s more graphically appealing (I hope), better categorized, and more user-friendly before. The categories are Suicide Prevention, Benzo Information Sites, Benzo Discussion Groups, and Film & Media. I am still adding new links and will continue to update it monthly. If you know of any site you would like to add to this list, please let me know on our feedback form. The podcast is driving more people to the website, and I want to make sure it is as functional and attractive as I can. Benzo Free Resources “As Prescribed — A Film by Holly Hardman“ I wanted to bring attention to a new film about benzos that’s coming soon. I just shared this on our Facebook the other page, but I wanted to also mention it here. Holly Hardman is currently in post-production on her documentary film, “As Prescribed.” She is still fundraising for the film, so if you’d like to donate a few bucks her way, I’m sure she would appreciate it. You can find a donations link on her website. As Prescribed Website Flumazinil and the Missing Coverage of Benzo Withdrawal in the Media I shared a story that I also posted on the Facebook Page about Flumazinil which caused me to think about the overall picture of media coverage of benzo withdrawal. The author, a physician, praised benzos for their amazing benefits. While I realize that his focus was more on short-term use in emergency and medical procedure settings, it still caused me concern. I took a look at the overall lack of coverage of dependence and withdrawal in many media stories and discussed the possible influence that we, as patients, might have on journalists and doctors alike. Benzo Story Today’s story is a success story from Lynne in Inglewood, California. Feature Today’s featured topic: An Introduction to Benzo Withdrawal Symptoms In our feature today, I discussed the possible common symptoms some experience during benzo withdrawal. This was a very high-level view and we will dive deeper into the subject of symptoms on future episodes. Psychological Symptoms: Anxiety – General (GAD), Hypochondria, Panic Attacks, Paranoid Thoughts, Phobias Behavioral – Anger, Irritability, Aggression, Depression, Obsessions, Suicidal Thoughts Cognitive – Cognitive Dysfunction, Memory Dysfunction, Intrusive Memories Excitability – Akathisia, Jumpiness, Restlessness, Restless Legs Perception – Depersonalization, Derealization, Hallucinations, Misperceptions, Perceptual Distortions Sleeping – Insomnia, Nightmares Social – Agoraphobia, Social Phobias Physical Symptoms: Abdominal/Gastrointestinal – Abdominal Pain, Appetite Change, Benzo Belly, Constipation, Diarrhea, Distention, Inflammation, Nausea, Groin Pain, Menstrual Difficulties, Pelvic Floor Dysfunction, Urinary Difficulties, Vomiting, Weight Change Eyes, Ears, Nose & Mouth – Blurred Vision, Double Vision, Difficulty Swallowing, Dry Mouth, Metallic Taste, Oral Thrush, Sore Eyes, Dry Eyes, Sound & Light Sensitivity, Tinnitus, Unusual Smell Head & Neck – Balance Issues, Dizziness, Light Headedness, Headache, Neck Pain, Slurred Speech, Throat Tightening Heart & Lungs – Flushing, Sweating, Heart Palpitations, Over-breathing Muscular – Aches and Pain, Electric Shocks, Fatigue, Sprains, Pulls, Tears, Stiffness, Tremors, Twitches, Jerks, Tics, Weakness, Convulsions, Paralysis, Seizures Nerve Sensations – Altered Sensations, Hypersensitivity, Numbness, Paresthesia, Skin Rashes, Itching, Tingling Immune & Endocrine – Increased Infections, Breast Swelling, Menstrual Difficulties The Podcast The Benzo Free Podcast provides information, support, and community to those who struggle with the long-term effects of anxiety medications such as benzodiazepines (Xanax, Ativan, Klonopin, Valium) and Z-drugs (Ambien, Lunesta, Sonata). WEBSITE: https://www.easinganxiety.com MAILING LIST: https://www.easinganxiety.com/subscribe YOUTUBE: https://www.youtube.com/@easinganx DISCLAIMER All content provided by Easing Anxiety is for general informational purposes only and should never be considered medical advice. Any health-related information provided is not a substitute for medical advice and should not be used to diagnose or treat health problems, or to prescribe any medical devices or other remedies. Never disregard medical advice or delay in seeking it. Please visit our website for our complete disclaimer at https://www.easinganxiety.com/disclaimer. CREDITS Music provided / licensed by Storyblocks Audio — https://www.storyblocks.com Benzo Free Theme — Title: “Walk in the Park” — Artist: Neil Cross PRODUCTION Easing Anxiety is produced by… Denim Mountain Press https://www.denimmountainpress.com ©2022 Denim Mountain Press – All Rights Reserved

When it comes to benzo withdrawal, all roads lead to anxiety. Anxiety is not only the most persistent and pervasive symptom of withdrawal, but it’s also the catalyst which makes all the others worse. In today’s episode, we learn about this mysterious emotional juggernaut called anxiety. What is it? What causes it? Why is it worse in withdrawal? And most of all, what can be done to help ease it? We also have two benzo stories, several news items, and a welcome message to the caregiver. Video ID: BFP009 Listen to the Podcast The Benzo Free Podcast is also available on... Apple Podcasts / Audible / iHeart / PodBean / Spotify / Stitcher Chapters 00:00 Quote 00:40 Introduction 07:05 Mailbag 13:04 Benzo News 18:03 Benzo Stories: Intro 19:43 Kathy’s Story 24:02 Jeff’s Story 31:30 Feature: Anxiety in Withdrawal 47:08 Closing Resources The following resource links are provided as a courtesy to our listeners. They do not constitute an endorsement by Easing Anxiety of the resource or any recommendations or advice provided therein. QUOTE: Soren Kierkegaard Kierkegaard, Søren. The Concept of Anxiety: A Simple Psychologically Orienting Deliberation on the Dogmatic Issue of Hereditary Sin. Princeton, NJ: Princeton University Press, 1980. MAILBAG The Ashton Manual BENZO NEWS “The Deadly Worst-Case Scenario for America’s Xanax Obsession” by Maria Szalavitz on published on Vice.com “Yes, Benzos Are Bad For You” by Dr. Allen Frances published on HuffingtonPost.com “Which Misused Prescription Meds Sent Americans to the ER?” by Dennis Thompson published on U.S. News and World Report FEATURE — Anxiety: The Beast of Benzo Withdrawal Barlow, David. Anxiety and Its Disorders. 2nd ed. New York: The Guilford Press, 2002. Helliwell, J., R. Layard and J. Sachs. World Happiness Report 2017. New York: Sustainable Development Solutions Network, 2017. http://worldhappiness.report/#happiness2017. Introduction In today’s intro, we opened with the quote from Kierkegaard, which I’ve reprinted below: And no Grand Inquisitor has in readiness such terrible tortures as has anxiety, and no spy knows to attack more artfully, choosing the instant when you are weakest, nor knows how to lay traps where you will be caught and ensnared, as anxiety knows how, and no sharp-witted judge knows how to interrogate, to examine you as anxiety does, which never lets you escape, neither at work nor at play, neither by day nor by night. — Soren Kierkegaard, “The Concept of Dread,” 1844 I followed that up with my pleasant surprise at the increase in likes of the Benzo Free Facebook page and how rapidly it has been increasing. And then I jumped into a welcome message for the caregiver. I wanted to let all of the listeners know that this podcast was as much for them as it was for the patient, and to share a genuine thank you for all they do. We also have some interviews coming and I’ll start the first one this weekend. And I closed by mentioning that this episode will probably run a little long, which it did. Mailbag This is where we share questions and comments which were discussed: Did you use any nutritional supplements during your taper and withdrawal? This question was submitted by Jill. I don’t have a clear answer for this one since I cannot recommend medication nor supplements nor give such advice. My experience during withdrawal includes B12 supplements prescribed by my doctor since my levels were low, kefir milk which helped my stomach for a while, and I was able to discontinue my stomach medication, again per doctor’s instruction. A normal healthy diet which includes generous amounts of fruit and vegetables and a source of protein and fats (from meat or vegetables), and not too much pure sugar or “junk foods,” provides all the nutrients a person needs. There is no general need for dietary supplements or extra vitamins or minerals or for “detoxifying” measures. All these can be harmful in excess. — Prof. Ashton, The Ashton Manual COMMENT from Kathryn, in Camrose, Alberta, Canada Kathryn shared her concerns about a comment I made in a previous episode where I stated that I was “grateful to Dr. Ashton for my sobriety.” Kathryn voiced her concern that the term “sobriety” made it sound like I was referring to addiction. I was not trying to imply anything with that comment and stated that I understood the issue around certain terminology and benzo dependence. I also stated that even if someone is dependent and addicted to benzos, whether they got them on the street or from a prescription, that they are just as welcome here as anyone else. Benzo News Here are the news articles shared in today’s podcast: The Deadly Worst-Cast Scenario for America’s Xanax Obsession This article highlighted the difficulties in Scotland when the government tried to crack-down on benzodiazepines. It includes an interview with Dr. Christy Huff of the Benzodiazepine Information Coalition (BIC). “The Deadly Worst-Case Scenario for America’s Xanax Obsession” by Maria Szalavitz on published on Vice.com “Yes, Benzos Are Bad For You” by Dr. Allen Frances I wanted to bring this article from 2016 back to the attention of the listeners because it is one of the best articles, written by a top-notch U.S. psychiatrist, which lays out the danger and damage caused by benzos. “Yes, Benzos Are Bad For You” by Dr. Allen Frances published on HuffingtonPost.com Which Misused Prescription Meds Send Americans to the ER? A recent report by US News and World Report states that benzodiazepines such as alprazolam (Xanax) and lorazepam (Ativan) are “most commonly implicated in health crisis that lead to an ER visit, followed by prescription opioids.” Of the 360,000 ER visits researchers identified which involved misuse of pharmaceuticals, “benzodiazepines were the primary prescription drug in 47 percent of cases.” “Which Misused Prescription Meds Sent Americans to the ER?” by Dennis Thompson published on U.S. News and World Report Benzo Stories I shared two stories today. One from Kathy in Windsor, Colorado and one from Jeff, in Winfield, Illinois. Jeff’s story was the first one submitted to us in audio format, so it was a pleasure to hear him share it in his own voice. Feature Today’s featured topic: Anxiety: The Beast of Benzo Withdrawal Today’s topic is all about anxiety and we spent a lot of time on it. It is the first in our series on symptoms, and I thought anxiety was a great place to start. In the episode, I discussed an intro to anxiety and shared possible causes. Then I moved onto anxiety in benzo withdrawal, and closed out with a section on how to ease the burden of anxiety. The Podcast The Benzo Free Podcast provides information, support, and community to those who struggle with the long-term effects of anxiety medications such as benzodiazepines (Xanax, Ativan, Klonopin, Valium) and Z-drugs (Ambien, Lunesta, Sonata). WEBSITE: https://www.easinganxiety.com MAILING LIST: https://www.easinganxiety.com/subscribe YOUTUBE: https://www.youtube.com/@easinganx DISCLAIMER All content provided by Easing Anxiety is for general informational purposes only and should never be considered medical advice. Any health-related information provided is not a substitute for medical advice and should not be used to diagnose or treat health problems, or to prescribe any medical devices or other remedies. Never disregard medical advice or delay in seeking it. Please visit our website for our complete disclaimer at https://www.easinganxiety.com/disclaimer. CREDITS Music provided / licensed by Storyblocks Audio — https://www.storyblocks.com Benzo Free Theme — Title: “Walk in the Park” — Artist: Neil Cross PRODUCTION Easing Anxiety is produced by… Denim Mountain Press https://www.denimmountainpress.com ©2022 Denim Mountain Press – All Rights Reserved

Summary Story of benzo withdrawal from a mother who was on Valium for 13 years and has tried a variety of specialists and other treatments to help. Details Key Topics: Anxiety, Benzos, Dependence, Withdrawal, Valium (diazepam), Doctors, Convulsions, Fluoroquinolone, Surgery, Hydromorphone, Shingles Vaccine, Tai Chi Listen on the Podcast: https://www.easinganxiety.com/post/anxiety-the-beast-of-benzo-withdrawal-bfp009 Content Warning Stories presented on Easing Anxiety may contain triggering content for certain segments of the population. If this is a concern for you, please refrain from reading any further. These stories are provided for informational purposes only and should never be considered medical advice. Opinions stated are those of the author only. See our disclaimer at the bottom of this post for more information. Kathy’s Story I am 73 and have been on Valium for 13 years. I was prescribed 5 mg daily for pelvic muscle spasms and pain. They worked well for five years. I got very sick for six months with vertigo then 24/7 nausea. Valium was the only thing that made it tolerable. I was prescribed Cipro and the rest is a terrible nightmare. For four of those months I was taking up to 35mg of Valium a day. I had my gallbladder removed and the nausea went away. My doctor told me to go off the Valium 5 mg every other day. I got a bladder infection from such a tight pelvis I couldn’t urinate, sleep, or eat. I was prescribed Cipro and the rest is a terrible nightmare. Not understanding Valium at all, I thought I was sick for the last eight years of trying to get off Valium. So, have gone to gastroenterologist, neurologist, psychiatrists, autoimmune specialist, pain specialists, naturopathic doctors, therapists, neurofeedback, biofeedback, PT, for my almost daily withdrawal symptoms. I am on 4 mg daily. I recently had the second Shringrix shingles shot that has dramatically increased my convulsions, which I hadn’t had for almost a year. The last convulsions happened after I went down from 5 mg to 4 mg of Valium. My psychiatrist wanted me to just jump off the 5 mg of Valium to just get it over with. I didn’t take his advice. The convulsions have been so bad that I have taken 1 mg of Ativan three times since October 10. I was a skier, backpacker, mountain bike rider, white water canoer, masters swimmer, wife, mom, and teacher. I am now pretty much disabled. I hope to try Tai Chi soon. Valium has taken away my life and many friends. Valium has taken away my life and many friends. At this point, I don’t know whether to continue the brutal withdrawal or just up my dose. I have too many symptoms to mention and no where to go for help. I am feeling pretty hopeless and a drag on my family. I had surgery on my sacrum in 2013 and was on hydromorphone for 2 1/2 years and got myself off that opioid in five weeks. I wish Valium was the same and as easy to get off of. I also would love to be in a support group but none exist where I live. I am just wearing out from this horrible drug. Kathy Share Your Story We are always looking for new stories to share. Please visit our feedback form if you’d like to share your story with our community. Thank you. Disclaimer All stories shared on Easing Anxiety are done so with the author’s permission. These stories are provided for informational purposes only and should never be considered medical advice. The views and opinions expressed within are those of the author only, and do not necessarily reflect those of Easing Anxiety or its founder. Stories presented on Easing Anxiety may contain triggering content for certain segments of the population. While provided as an informational resource to our community, some stories may not be beneficial to those who are sensitive to their content. Regarding benzodiazepine withdrawal or BIND, most people can withdraw safely, successfully, and without serious complications if they are informed and have a solid support system. Many of the stories shared on Easing Anxiety are extreme and should not be used to create any expectations of one’s individual experience. Please read the Ashton Manual formore information and work with your doctor. Withdrawal, tapering, or any other change in dosage of benzodiazepines, nonbenzodiazepines (Z-drugs), or any other prescription medication should only be done under the direct supervision of a licensed physician. View our complete disclaimer for more info.

Summary Story of a middle-aged man whose dependence and withdrawal from Xanax had severe negative effects on his health, career, and marriage. Details Key Topics: Anxiety, Benzos, Dependence, Withdrawal, Xanax (alprazolam), Doctors, Imipramine, Antidepressant, GAD, Counseling, Career Loss, Relationship Loss, Separation, Fear, Symptoms Listen on the Podcast: https://www.easinganxiety.com/post/anxiety-the-beast-of-benzo-withdrawal-bfp009 Content Warning Stories presented on Easing Anxiety may contain triggering content for certain segments of the population. If this is a concern for you, please refrain from reading any further. These stories are provided for informational purposes only and should never be considered medical advice. Opinions stated are those of the author only. See our disclaimer at the bottom of this post for more information. Jeff’s Story I am a 53-year-old man. I was first prescribed Xanax back in 1987. I had just graduated from college and had taken my first real job. I was excited, but even more so, I was scared that I didn’t have what it took to abandon my college lifestyle and embark on a career. I began having very strong surges of anxiety, bordering on panic, and within a few weeks I had become rather stuck in an acute anxiety state. I was diagnosed with Generalized Anxiety Disorder (GAD) and was given a tricyclic antidepressant called Imipramine, as well as a prescription for .25mg Xanax, to be taken only at bedtime. Over the next several months, I got used to my new life, became adept at my job, and my symptoms waned. I discontinued the antidepressant, but I continued to take .25mg – .50mg Xanax every night at bedtime, and never stopped. When I look back over all the years, I only used Xanax at bedtime. I don’t really feel like it had any detrimental effects on me other than feeling groggy when it was time to get up in the morning. I’m sure it had other negative effects, but nothing particularly disabling or uncomfortable. I do know that I was emotionally dependent on Xanax to fall asleep every night… I do know that I was emotionally dependent on Xanax to fall asleep every night and there must have been some degree of chemical dependence as well. During those years, my anxiety would flare up from time to time due to stressful life circumstances; and as the situations resolved, my anxiety would always go back into remission. In 2010, I had some marital and job problems and that old anxiety made a predictable return. My doctor recommended increasing my Xanax use, and for the first time in my life I started using it during the day. I didn’t think much of it at the time. I was grateful for the relief it provided and my doctor clearly felt that I could benefit from it. Over the next several months, a powerful physical dependence took hold; but I was completely unaware of what it was. I just continued treating my escalating anxiety with more Xanax. It was during the fall of 2011 when I entered into a different state of being. From that time forward, I was out of my mind with constant fear / terror / anxiety. I was in that fearful state around the clock, and I was having to get up during the middle of the night to take additional Xanax, only to wake the next morning in utter terror. Of course, I was in a miserable state of tolerance withdrawal, but I had no idea what that was. I asked my psychiatrist if the Xanax could actually be causing my symptoms and he assured me this was not the case… Several times over the next five years, I asked my psychiatrist if the Xanax could actually be causing my symptoms and he assured me this was not the case and that I needed weekly counseling. I did weekly counseling for two years and my counselor was confused as to why I was not making any progress. Even though my life circumstances were settled and stable, this feeling of constant fear raged on, and I was barely functional on any level. Neither my psychiatrist nor my counselor recognized the signs and symptoms of severe tolerance, and I was given many additional medications for my “severe, treatment-resistant anxiety.” It wasn’t until Jan. 2017 that I did massive research and found out what had happened to me. I discovered a huge online community of people whose stories corroborated my own. I was in such severe tolerance withdrawal I did not feel that a slow, symptom-guided taper was possible, as I was not able to stabilize at any dose. I controlled the rate of my four-month-long taper, which is quite rapid among those in the know. (This may have been a mistake). I am now 16 months off and I have yet to feel any measurable improvement at all. My symptoms are almost entirely emotional / mental. The fear / terror is by far the worst symptom and is completely crippling. I also suffer from severe cognitive disruption and the brain fog and mental fatigue is often staggering. I lost my job two weeks into my taper and have not been able to work since. My wife and I have put our home up for sale and we have separated. (I’m living with my parents). In summary, I have lost my health, my career, my home, my finances, and by the time this is over, I may have lost my marriage. In summary, I have lost my health, my career, my home, my finances, and by the time this is over, I may have lost my marriage. I honestly don’t see ever being able to recover from this. Benzodiazepine withdrawal has all but destroyed me. My history of benzodiazepine consumption: 1987-2000 .25mg every night at bedtime 2000-2009 .5mg every night at bedtime 2010 1mg/day (.5mg at bedtime and .5mg at some point during the day) 2011 1.5mg/day (.5mg 3X/day) 2012-2017 2mg/day (.5mg 4X/day) Tapered Feb. 2017-June 2017. Benzo free since June 14, 2017. Jeff Share Your Story We are always looking for new stories to share. Please visit our feedback form if you’d like to share your story with our community. Thank you. Disclaimer All stories shared on Easing Anxiety are done so with the author’s permission. These stories are provided for informational purposes only and should never be considered medical advice. The views and opinions expressed within are those of the author only, and do not necessarily reflect those of Easing Anxiety or its founder. Stories presented on Easing Anxiety may contain triggering content for certain segments of the population. While provided as an informational resource to our community, some stories may not be beneficial to those who are sensitive to their content. Regarding benzodiazepine withdrawal or BIND, most people can withdraw safely, successfully, and without serious complications if they are informed and have a solid support system. Many of the stories shared on Easing Anxiety are extreme and should not be used to create any expectations of one’s individual experience. Please read the Ashton Manual formore information and work with your doctor. Withdrawal, tapering, or any other change in dosage of benzodiazepines, nonbenzodiazepines (Z-drugs), or any other prescription medication should only be done under the direct supervision of a licensed physician. View our complete disclaimer for more info.

Elizabeth McCarthy, MA, LPC hits the benzo community trifecta. She is a benzo survivor, an activist in the benzo community, and a therapist with a decade of experience working with dependence and withdrawal. In today’s episode, we have an in-depth interview with Liz where we learn valuable insights about resilience, survival, and hope. We also take a brief look at the dark side of an idle mind, discuss the difficulty of finding support in non-English speaking countries, and shine a fresh spotlight on a wonderful resource. Video ID: BFP010 Listen to the Podcast The Benzo Free Podcast is also available on... Apple Podcasts / Audible / iHeart / PodBean / Spotify / Stitcher Chapters 00:00 Introduction 08:00 Mailbag 11:02 Benzo News 15:07 Benzo Story 17:45 Interview: Elizabeth McCarthy 57:11 Closing Resources The following resource links are provided as a courtesy to our listeners. They do not constitute an endorsement by Easing Anxiety of the resource or any recommendations or advice provided therein. BENZO NEWS Benzo Free Facebook Page — (This page is no longer active.) “A Xanax Prescription That Should Have Been Rejected (BIC)” by Dr. Christy Huff — https://www.benzoinfo.com/2019/03/14/a-xanax-prescription-that-should-have-been-rejected World Benzodiazepine Awareness Day (W-BAD) Events — http://w-bad.org/events “10 Proven Tips to Sleep Better at Night” on ThriveGlobal.com — https://thriveglobal.com/stories/10-proven-tips-to-sleep-better-at-night “10 Things Uninformed Benzodiazepine Prescribers Do” on BIC — https://www.benzoinfo.com/2018/06/23/10-things-uninformed-benzodiazepine-prescribers BENZO SPOTLIGHT The Alliance for Benzodiazepine Best Practices — https://benzoreform.org Introduction In today’s intro, we opened with a brief tale of ninjas in the brain. I was just having fun, but about a serious topic. The ninjas are our negative thoughts, especially about our condition and whether it will be permanent or not. I used this analogy to illuminate the benefits of work and how an active brain can help prevent this chronic negative thought cycle. Mailbag This is where we share questions and comments which were discussed: COMMENT: About finding resources for non-English speaking patients. This comment was submitted by Juerg, in Berne, Switzerland. He suggested the need for a list of benzo resources, including people who have a shared experience, for all countries around the world. Benzo Stories I shared one short story today, from Terry in Hot Springs, Arkansas, USA. Feature Today’s featured topic: An Interview with Elizabeth McCarthy, MA, LPC Today’s feature is an in-depth interview with Liz McCarthy. Liz is a benzo survivor, a benzo activist, and a therapist who has a decade of experience working with patients suffering from benzo dependence and withdrawal. The interview shed a light on both her personal struggles and insights that she has gained from working with a variety of benzo patients. The Podcast The Benzo Free Podcast provides information, support, and community to those who struggle with the long-term effects of anxiety medications such as benzodiazepines (Xanax, Ativan, Klonopin, Valium) and Z-drugs (Ambien, Lunesta, Sonata). WEBSITE: https://www.easinganxiety.com MAILING LIST: https://www.easinganxiety.com/subscribe YOUTUBE: https://www.youtube.com/@easinganx DISCLAIMER All content provided by Easing Anxiety is for general informational purposes only and should never be considered medical advice. Any health-related information provided is not a substitute for medical advice and should not be used to diagnose or treat health problems, or to prescribe any medical devices or other remedies. Never disregard medical advice or delay in seeking it. Please visit our website for our complete disclaimer at https://www.easinganxiety.com/disclaimer. CREDITS Music provided / licensed by Storyblocks Audio — https://www.storyblocks.com Benzo Free Theme — Title: “Walk in the Park” — Artist: Neil Cross PRODUCTION Easing Anxiety is produced by… Denim Mountain Press https://www.denimmountainpress.com ©2022 Denim Mountain Press – All Rights Reserved

Summary Benzo story of withdrawal from Klonopin as told through a series of emails spanning over 1 1/2 years. Details Key Topics: Anxiety, Benzos, Dependence, Withdrawal, Klonopin (clonazepam), Symptoms, Insomnia, Sleep apnea, Palpitations, Listen on the Podcast: https://www.easinganxiety.com/post/insights-on-withdrawal-a-conversation-with-elizabeth-mccarthy-bfp010 Content Warning Stories presented on Easing Anxiety may contain triggering content for certain segments of the population. If this is a concern for you, please refrain from reading any further. These stories are provided for informational purposes only and should never be considered medical advice. Opinions stated are those of the author only. See our disclaimer at the bottom of this post for more information. Terry’s Story I wanted to share a piece of my story. I am 17 months benzo-free, off Klonopin. It has been the hardest thing I have ever done. I have had numerous symptoms, most along the vagus nerve corridor. Panic attacks. Heart palps. Gastro issues. Issues that I liken to a chemical stroke. I have lost bowel control and hardly been able to stand and walk. Probably, the most distressing has been sleeping issues such as central sleep apnea. I have been encouraged by your podcast. I have been searching for a reassuring voice and you have provided one. Keep up the great work, Terry UPDATE: March 27, 2019 Your podcast has been a welcome “voice” added to Benzo Buddies and the Facebook forums out here. The healing time is so daunting. At 18 months, I still have a long way to go in my personal journey. Symptoms wax and wane, some soul crushing, but hearing your calm soothing voice of reason is a godsend. Glad to hear that each week your audience grows! UPDATE: April 21, 2019 D, my new reality is dealing with reactive hypoglycemia. This and the occasional air hunger is dogging me. But I just passed the 19 month mark and have seen improvement. I really appreciated Jennifer’s (Podcast Interview with Jennifer Leigh) comment on contesting the conventional wisdom that at the 18 month mark you should be markedly healed. Not my reality. Keep up the good work. Terry UPDATE: April 22, 2019 D, if you come across anything about blood sugar fluctuations, I would be grateful. I have seen a few posts on hypoglycemia on Benzo Buddies forum. I know there have been reports of blood sugar fluctuations during withdrawal, but I am assuming that was for people in acute and not whatever someone is at the 19-month mark. Not acute but certainly not healed. Thanks much, Terry UPDATE: May 31, 2019 Hey, D, I wanted to run something by you since you are a fellow Klonopin veteran. I am 20 months “clean” and still having issues that I believe have a strong vagal nerve disfunction feeling to them. Wanted to get your thoughts on your experience. Here is an odd one: vibration seems to effect me negatively. When I ride my lawnmower and get off, it’s as if I have difficulty with my balance and walking. I think my vagus nerve gets jarred and even have weird disassociation and even loss of vagal tone (blood pressure drop) upon getting off the machine. I have had the same thing happen climbing out of a golf cart. Odd? Yes. Have you noticed anything like this? Thanks, Terry UPDATE: August 17, 2019 Always a new twist to Benzo Injury Syndrome. A couple of weeks ago, I was at a movie theater. Having lately been dealing with reactive hypoglycemia, I grabbed a Taco Bell ultimate burrito (yes, Mexican food is my magic meal! Holds blood glucose level pretty well). I ate quickly so I would not be haggled by theater staff with eating outside food 🥘 😬. I had just finished eating the burrito when I started salivating. Salivating in the way you do when you are nauseated. But I was not nauseous. It was like someone turned on a water faucet in my mouth. I was concerned, but thought this too will pass and an isolated incident. But over the past two weeks I have had daily episodes of mouth watering. Also, my digestive issues have kicked up. I went to an ear-nose-throat doctor and he wants me to see my gastro doctor about possible dumping syndrome. I have not had any surgery on my gastric system. So, I am going, but suspect this is a cycling of gastro symptoms and the vagus disfunction we all deal with to some extent. Wanted to share in the event someone has similar experience. Thanks for allowing me to share. Terry UPDATE: October 9, 2019 I want to tell you how much I appreciated your “On-the-road podcast.” I was in Atlanta on a business trip myself having real issues with my symptoms and trying to perform in a productive business environment. I put your podcast on and we journeyed together in downtown Atlanta! I had a great walk with you. What a blessing it was. Lately, and as mentioned before, my main issue is with reactive hypoglycemia or what I believe now may be post prandial syndrome. I have not been formally diagnosed with this but I have narrowed down the symptoms and they are markedly the same as you can look up. The syndrome can be brought on by adrenal fatigue or other compromised neurological systems. Anyway, great listening to you road trip and interview podcast. What a great time. Anyway, if your journey takes you along interstate 40 through the Little Rock area let me know. Hot Springs where is am would be off your path but you may take the southern route to Florida and might swing this way. Keep me in mind if practical. Thanks and God bless and keep Terry UPDATE: October 13, 2020 D, Glad to see you back from sabbatical. I just past the three-year benzo-free mark, and although “better,” I still struggle with some residual symptoms as well. Mostly digestive and cardiovascular. I struggle with vagal induced palpitations. They come and go. I have had stress tests and other work ups. Still, it is hard to come to terms that my withdrawal symptoms have carried over to year three plus. I really wanted to be one of those “woo hoo I have completely healed guys”. Guess that will not be the case. Thanks for your podcast. I have missed you, friend, Terry UPDATE: October 15, 2020 Brother, it’s soul crushing to say the least. Seems like I spend my days seeking validation for my reality. Appreciate your good work. You have helped me and countless others. Terry Share Your Story We are always looking for new stories to share. Please visit our feedback form if you’d like to share your story with our community. Thank you. Disclaimer All stories shared on Easing Anxiety are done so with the author’s permission. These stories are provided for informational purposes only and should never be considered medical advice. The views and opinions expressed within are those of the author only, and do not necessarily reflect those of Easing Anxiety or its founder. Stories presented on Easing Anxiety may contain triggering content for certain segments of the population. While provided as an informational resource to our community, some stories may not be beneficial to those who are sensitive to their content. Regarding benzodiazepine withdrawal or BIND, most people can withdraw safely, successfully, and without serious complications if they are informed and have a solid support system. Many of the stories shared on Easing Anxiety are extreme and should not be used to create any expectations of one’s individual experience. Please read the Ashton Manual formore information and work with your doctor. Withdrawal, tapering, or any other change in dosage of benzodiazepines, nonbenzodiazepines (Z-drugs), or any other prescription medication should only be done under the direct supervision of a licensed physician. View our complete disclaimer for more info.

I realize that celebrating the International Day of Happiness may be the furthest thing from your mind if you are dealing with benzo dependence and withdrawal, but I don’t think it should be. Finding something to be happy about just might be the little thing which can lift your spirits, at least for a day. In my research, in addition to benzos, anxiety, depression, mental health, and other similar topics, I also spent a lot of time investigating happiness and trying to learn the common causes. For me, climbing out of the benzo misery wasn’t just about easing my symptoms, but it was also about changing my way of life and learning from those who do better — those who are happier. Thus, I learned a lot about happiness, read several books on the subject matter, and I’ve been following the World Happiness Reportlistings for a few years now. I believe there is a lot to learn from people who consistently rank high on this list. March 20th is the International Day of Happiness and it coincides with the release of the UN’s World Happiness Report produced by the Sustainable Development Solutions Network. This is a list of the happiest countries in the world. This year’s winner is Finland for the second year in a row. Top 10 World’s Happiest Countries Finland Denmark Norway Iceland Netherlands Switzerland Sweden New Zealand Canada Austria It’s easy to see that Scandinavian countries excel in helping their people be happy. In fact, this group of countries appears at the top of this list consistently year after year, often jockeying for position in the top 5. They’re obviously doing something right. But others have some work to do. So many people in the world look to the superpowers as the epitome of the good life, and yet not one superpower made the top 10. The U.S. dropped from 18th to 19th this year and has dropped five spots since 2017. The U.K. is ranked at 15th, Germany at 17th, and Japan, Russia, and China don’t even make the top 50. Unfortunately, poverty and civil unrest also play a significant factor in the listings affecting countries like South Sudan, Afghanistan, and Rwanda who are at or near the bottom of the list. In an article from CNN, Katia Hetter reports that addiction appears to be partly to blame for unhappiness in the U.S. Addictions come in many forms, from substance abuse to gambling to digital media. The compulsive pursuit of substance abuse and addictive behaviors is causing severe unhappiness. — Jeffrey Sachs, Director of the Sustainable Development Solutions Network Addiction, substance abuse, and in my opinion, physical dependence, can be significant factors in a person’s happiness and this report should be a wake-up call for us all. Once we get through the gauntlet of benzo withdrawal, wouldn’t it be nice if we learned a few tools along the way to actually help us be happier on the other side? I guess my main point in this post is this: There are countries in this world who repeatedly rank highest in happiness. Shouldn’t we learn from their example? Happy International Day of Happiness, everyone! Here are a few links if you want to learn more. “This is the world’s happiest country in 2019” by Katia Hetter on CNN.com World Happiness Report 2019 International Day of Happiness Keep calm, taper slowly, and take care of yourself, D :)